reminisce

2012-01-15T13:41:00.000+08:00

alright.
its been so long since i last blogged.Since right now,i need somewhere to rant out all my feelings,here shall it be.
feeling so sucky for the past weeks.Ever since that day,those memories just cant stop haunting me.Wanna find someone to talk to,but its also hard.Who will be there listening to all those stupid rants plus i dont wanna bother anyone.No one knows exactly how im feeling and etc.It's gonna be 1 month since that day,why i just couldnt get over you yet.Hate everything about myself.just hate it,hate this feelings.I still want to know how are you and you about your daily lives as a friend,but i guess its kind of impossible for now.We should not have even started in the first place.Looking at how things are right now,i felt so depressed about it.Nothing to salvage back the closed friendship that we used to share.Nothing at all.All this aint what i wanted it to be.Whyyy,whyy did we even started...): 每天只能走一步，算一步。HAIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSS.
can someone just enlightened me..

2010-07-29T15:32:00.002+08:00

I LOVE LIHUA!!!!! <3

2009-12-01T19:31:00.001+08:00

SUCKS..
VULNERABLE...

2009-11-30T03:10:00.002+08:00

I have been working in the IT FAIR which is held at expo for the past few days.
unfortunately,i didnt see anyone i knew except liyuan who was working at there too.
hmm ,it's quite a tiring but yet an easy job:D
but that's not the most important thing.
the most important thing was that i made friends there.
and i swear they were really friendly!:D
haha! Worked tgt as partners and had great laughs over there!
I enjoyed working with them despite the fact that we had knew each other for just 5 days!
Will meet up with them soon ,sooonn!
gonna hang out with fiona,nick,eileen,genson and more:D!
And we were all veyr kiasu ,exchanging each other numbers at the very last min!
hehehe
Im glad that i had work to kept me occupied..because recently im not leading a very peaceful and happy life.
ok,but im trying to stay happy,trying hard..
Anyway,that's about it.
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BTW ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM!
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Before I end , I hope my dearest SGN will be happy!
But I hope you will stay strong. Sister will be here with you:D

Time says it all..

2009-11-19T18:28:00.003+08:00

Firstly,Im back! Lee Pei Si called me to updateee!
So I gt no choice uh!
Alright,for the past 2 days I had been working at "CARREFOUR" for the annual stock-taking.
It's really a tedious and tiring job ,I can say.But working with my fellow friends is quite an enjoyable one.Somemore we worked tgt from 11pm up to 9am in the morning.
First day,worked at PS.Yl and Ghasis worked different shift and departments but i saw them a few times when shieh Tein and I going for toilet breakkk!
So,Yl and ghasis were slacking there..totally shiok lo!
Oh WAIT , I must mention that I TOTALLY HATE TOOTH-BRUSHES!!!
BECOS I WAS ASKED TO COUNT THE TOOTHBRUSHES AND CATEGORISE THEM INTO DIFFERENT TYPES AND BRANDS !
WTF,TOTALLY HATE IT.
I COUNTED FOR DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES AND I'M TOTALLY PEK CHEK!
WHY DO WE HAVE SO MANY DIFFERENT TYPES OF TOOTH-BRUSHES?!ROARSSSSSSSSSS!
But oh well,should i say im lucky enough?Because one of the supervisor tasked me to do other things!
lucky meee!but oh well,I really count the tooth-brushes till gone-bonkerss!!
So we enjoyed working at PS because the staffs there were more friendly than the suntec one.><
Then second day worked at suntec with yl they all.
So , the atmosphere was totally different.
the staffs there were not as friendly as the PS one .
It was totally pin drop silence while we were working at suntecccc!!zomg.
The only happy thing was that suntec carrefour was so generous that they switched on the air-con while we were working!hahaha!
So i was quite happy,if not I hot daooo~~
haha.so aft work we were all so happy and I shouted " YES AHHH! FINALLY FINISHED WORK!!!!!" HAHAHA.I WAS DAMN DAMN HAPPY.
after that we headed to mac to had our breakfast!
As usual,Im always the crazy one ><
lolol!
p/s : carrefour bake de bread was damn freaking nice!awesome man!!
p/p/s : i saw jin kai and zikai on the second day of work.They were working at there too.
the funny part was that i heard them saying they saw me again?haha! the world must be really small..becos few days ago,i saw them also :p

hhaha..sq ahgong and me(:

poh and goh:D

haha.i was browsing through my laptop photos and realised that i took a shot of me and hweeteng web-camming!hah..those crazy timeszxzx!

p/p/s : tmr i going to get to see tt stupid ong-gaga!ahahah!
p/p/p/s : I miss my gf's like hell !

O's OVER!

2009-11-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHT! FIRST THING FIRST.
O LVL HAD FINALLY ENDED.YES,ENDED!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I HAD ALR CLEAR MY THINGS ALR:D
Anyway,aft mcq paper.ty came to my house and we dye hair tgt.
not bad uh,quite successful i must say.
afterwhich had dinner at cosway to celebrate mum's belated birthday.
bro's treat! had dinner at a chinese restaurant!
ate till im so fullll!
afterwhich caught love happens with adam,ty and khow ming.
the movie was not bad:D
movie ended at abt 11 plus.
so ty and km went off first.
adam and i went outside cosway to slack and chit till 12 plus and headed home..
thn today woke up at 12 plus..
had lunch with family and then off to class bbq.
it was ok lo..nt much turned up for the bbq.
food was awesome,i must say!
thanks to those boys!
hahahaa:D
at abt 10 plus near 11 headed to alameen with ty,sq,zj and syahirah.
had naan for supper?
diddnt eat much cos i was really full .zzz
so afterwhich headed home at abt 12?
so yeah,today gonna be the last day i saw each and everyone of them?
as everyone would be busy working and etc.
so take care guys.
lihua will miss your ! ^^

Maybe it's time for a change again...

2009-11-10T14:39:00.001+08:00

Lately , I have been thinking a lot again..

Have been thinking of how people are treating me nowadays,how i treated people.

Oh well,realised i somehow need to change,for the better.

People always said that "ignorance is bliss"

but deep down,how long can we feign the ignorance?

Lately,I have realised that people aint not really interested in what I'm talking about.

So best way is to keep my mouth shut.

When I told them something,they either lack of interest in it or rather in silent.

Thanks so much for treating me this way..I wondered since when did I treat you or rather you guys this way?Why must you/you all treat me like this?Oh well,but still thanks anyway.Maybe next time i shall not be the one talking always,but the one listening instead.:D

Friends,good friends.So much for being friends or rather good friends.

But on the otherhand,I felt so blessed..

Nevertheless,thanks to my Nuer:D

Still feeling guilty over somethings..oh well,I shall let it be.

I just got to accept it , i got no choice left..Thanks nuer for being there(:

anyway,tmr last day of o lvl!

Like finally!Muahahhaha!

Going say goodbye to all the books,notes and my black hair!:DDDD

History repeated again...

2009-11-08T14:10:00.000+08:00

Friday.
Met up with hweeteng and adam to watch a movie.
It's been long since i hang out with them due to my o's lvl.
so went to watch "poker king" with them!
I think the movie was real , GREAT!
hahha:D
louis is so handsome siaaaaa!
ZOMG!HHAAH:D
Movie ended ard 9 plus.
headed to starbucks to slack awhile and home sweet home at abt 10 plus.
Walked back home with ht..
then reached home abt 11 plus.
bathed and last min ,adam and I headed down to downtown east to find sonia.
I reached his house at abt 12 plus and we walked to cosway to take cab down..
On the way,funny things happened and we did talk quite a number of things.
So we went to the wrong way because sonia told us the wrong way ><
took 2 cabs ended up .
then finally managed to find sonia .
slacked at mac awhile.
then we were aimlessly walking ard..
then afterwhich,we managed to find bowling centre.
so went to play bowling with them.
haha.the way adam and sonia threw their ball made me LOL!
HAAHA:D
So after playing , we headed back to the resort.
but couldnt enter,so walked ard again.
and went to subway to slack.
played poker cards ..
and ard 5 plus had breakfast at subway and aferwhich we went to macs since i wanted to eat mac.
so slacked at there till 6 plus in the morning or rather 7, thn me and adam headed back home since i gt a bbq on during the noon .
so reached home ard 9 and off i went to my lala land..
then ytd,woke up at 3 by 15msgs -.- god damn it.
woke up prepared and was effing hungry by that time.
so went out at abt 4 plus..
reached there abt 5 plus.
then mission failed again.
poh mei ying ah,YOU SUCKS!
hahahaaaaaaaaaaa!
Then we really had great fun last night.
I laughed non-stopped again!
It's great,because of that yong da and jin hui lo><
played games till 9 plus ..
then me,zj,shuqing,ty,my,ty,mc,yong da and jin hui decided to play catching at abt 10pm?
lolool!
So we headed to playground to play.
was playing blind mice at first.
afterwhich we changed game.
played "ali-bomb"
HHAHAA!I'm sort of pro in this game:p
I played that in my pri sch life!Muahahhahaha!
But it's a pity that it's late at night,we couldnt shout and run as mad and as loud as we could!):
ROARSSSS!
played till 11 plus.
decided to change game again.
this time round played "truth or dare"
wtf,the first time i played this game played untill soooo ....
couldnt believe it ><
played till abt 1 plus and headed home.
overall , we really enjoyed :D
Hope,my enjoyed too!
Happy 17th birthday in advance!:PP
Gonna go swimming ltr on . i think i forgot how to swim alr sia ><
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guess it's time to plan for gf's outing le uh.christ asked me to plan one .haahaaha!
p/s : to that someone..sorry and thank you :DD

STRESS-FREEEEEE!

2009-11-05T23:25:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
IM BACK.
O LVL GONNA ENDS SOON.
IM LEFT WITH ONLY MCQ PAPER WHICH IS NEXT WED!
MUAHHAHA!
BUT I DOUBT I WILL DO WELL LA HOR,ESP TODAY POA PAPER D:
Well,how dumb can I get?!?!?
asshole la
even my mum say im dumb):
well,whats done cant be undone!
Just hope that i will really pass every single subjectttt,esp english! NO E8 PLEASEEEEEEEEE):
So today was really a great day i must say :D
firstly,aft poa paper went home bathe and prepared.
started raining like madzxzx.
was supposed to meet zijing,pei si ,ghasis,yanling,shieh tein at breadtalk abt 130.
and started raining la -.-
but lucky my mum brought me to cosway,if not i dunno how am i gonna get there :D
so back to the point , me ,zj and ps went to eat mac!while yl,ghasis and st went to foodcourt to eat.
since we wanna win sthh and it's been a long long time since i ate mac!
so yes we went and i didnt win anything -.-
afterwhich met up with mei ying cos i last min called her out for the job..
and hence , we went to tanjong pagar tgt with shuqing.
We were practically laughing throughout the journey man!
and the most malu-iest thing that happened was that I thought we had reached tanjong pagar,so I asked them to go out.
but just before i wanna step out,i saw the board there which wrote"Outram Park"
then I was like wth?!?!
So i faster asked them come in and we was like yl and ghasis still outside..then I kept waved to them to ask them come in .
so malu please ><
reached tanjong pagar..had a hard time to find the building.
walked one big round -.-
thn reached ,while waiting for our turns..
we were so sians..and dunno who suggest this"husband &wife thingy lo" I think it was yl?
thn yl&sq one couple,me &zj one couple,shieh tein and mei ying one couple and lastly pei si and ghasis one couple.
then headed to mac aft the interview for awhile.
was laughing at mad inside the mac.
thn on journey back to woodlands more cham.
I think the whole cabinet were filled with our voices uh><
and we were so crazy i should say?that we started di-siaoing each other by saying..
"eh,dnt disiao my wife/husband leh .Dnt seduce him/her
damn freaking funny please.
we at there act act scold each other.lmaos.
then aft that was talking abt the bermuda triangle,,ghost stories and etc..
overall , it was really a great day!
I LAUGHED TILL MY JAWS HURT LA):
LOLOL.
BUT OH WELL,IT'S BEEN LONG SINCE I FELT SO STRESS-FREE!
MUAHAHA!
So I really loved today!
It's great to hang out with them!
So,that's all for today!
hahahaa

THE LAST JOURNEY.

2009-10-21T22:07:00.002+08:00

OK.

FIRST AND FOREMOST,I WOULD LIKE TO THANK 5DYN FOR THE 3 YEARS SPENT TGT(FOR THE MOST OF US).

OR RATHER SOME EVEN 4 OR 5 YEARS.

THROUGH THIS YEARS,I COULD SEE THAT EACH INDIVIDUAL OF US HAD TURNED INTO A MATURE LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.

My life with you guys was filled with laughters,joys,angryness,sadness.

But as years passed by,our class got even more bonded.

Sec 3 we won the "BEST INNOVATIVE PRODUUCT" FOR CHARITY BAZAR.

SEC 4"BEST DRESSED CLASS" DURING BE URSELF DAY.

AND LASTLY,THE LAST YEAR.

WE NAMED THE AIR RIFLE RANGE AS"THE SPECTRUM"

There were countless of things that we as a class , including our dearest teachers,had went through together.

Those times were etched deep down in my heart.

I sincerely thanks all the teachers for all the guidance,never-ending patience and care for us.

I would also like to thank my fellow friends for putting up with me,and those people whom were there for me when I needed you guys so much.

And sorry for talking so loud in class at times,and for whatever things that I had done wrong.

I hope you guys wont forget abt me,cos I know I wont..LAST,ALL THE BEST FOR THE UPCOMING'S O LVL!

Hwee Teng's HERE.

To my dear HUAHUA.
Indeed, look how time had passed. From the day I knew you, your short hair and fiery temper in Sec 4, till today, the long-haired neutral-tempered HUAHUA I know in Sec 5. How much have we bonded and how close have we became, I must say. Time seemed to pass so fast and POOF, it's your graduation day today.

Today, is your last day of Secondary school. I know, how much you dont wish to leave, be it your friends, your classmates, your teachers or the school itself. How much memories and footsteps you'd be leaving behind you. I guess this is what we call "All good things come to an end"? But I bet, for sure, the countless memories would be kept in your heart, for the many years to come(: Dont worry.

I'd be missing you so badly, though we're living only a street away. I'd miss going to school with you, seeing your face in school, calling your name during your pe, laughing at your clipped-up fringe... So much more it's hard for me to present everything here. But for sure, I'd definitely miss you bad. VERY BAD. You're so mean for making me miss you, HOW COULD YOU? );

Even though me might not be able to see each other as often now, but we'll always be SGN, and you'd always be my "mama". Work very very very hard for your O levels. But, dont stress yourself out. Remember what I've told you, remember what I've said to you.. O level is important, but not as important as your health(:
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!! :DDDD

"Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action."

- Benjamin Disraeli

Takecare, always.

With Love,
Hwee Teng.

2009-10-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

hello people!
It's been awhile since i had post.
somehow gt the sudden urge to post.
no idea why.
Alright.
life has been great or not great somehow.
too much confusions lately..
but yeah,Im quite busy with my studies!
O LVL IS 16 MORE DAYS AWAY.
GRADUATION DAY IS 12 MORE DAYS AWAY!
I REALLY HOPE I CAN FINISH MY O LVL SOON RIGHT NOW.
AND OBVIOUSLY TO DO WELL FOR IT.
IM PRETTY STRESSED UP.
THAT'S WHAT I CAN SAY.
WELL,WHO REALLY KNOWS THAT IM TRYING SO HARD AND IM STRESSED UP?
HAHAHA
GETTING 12 POINTS ISNT EASY FOR ME AND I KNOW IT'S IMPOSSIBLE.
SO I WANT TO TELL MY GIRLFRIENDS THAT I DNT CARE WHETHER DID I REALLY GET 12 POINTS IN THE END.
BECAUSE IM REALLY STRESSED UP.
15 POINTS IS WHAT I AIMING FOR.
YOU GUYS GOT TO BELIEVE ME,I WONT GET 12 POINTS FOR SURE.
BECAUSE IT'S IMPOSSIBLE,REAL IMPOSSIBLE.
I GT NTH MUCH TO SAY ANYMORE.
SO I SHALL END HERE.
somehow,somehow...

It's not too late.

2009-09-16T18:03:00.001+08:00

well.
ytd i had a great meet-up session with christianna!
:D
but yeah,shu rou and her made a pact that if i didnt score 12 points for L1R4, i can say goodbye to them already!sigh.
what can I do?
just work harder lo:D They did this is for my own good.
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I only can say it's never too late to know something.
At least I have learned countless of things ..
Life is always unfair and always expect the unexpected things to happen.
Indeed, this kind of life was what I had been through.
But still,there's still lots of things Im happy with in life:DD
Pain is inevitable in life,but misery is choice.
It's up to us to choose which path we wanna take.

B.W.G

2009-09-13T12:58:00.002+08:00

Too much disappointments,lately.
way too much..
Today is the last day of september holidays!
which means 7 MORE WEEKS TO MY O LVL!
YES 7 MORE WEEKS.
I had just told my mum that im gonna change my study area.
Im gonna study at the same old place where i used to study because firstly,I wouldnt have much distraction and having the strong urge to use computer.I was hoping that my com will breakdown now,NOW!So i cant use it anymore.But yeah , it's still working well -.-
Currently my study area is infront of the computer-.- which is a SO NOT GOOD PLACE TO STUDY!
Therefore,I dnt care whether she like it not.Im just gonna change my study area.
My mum got no choice,doesnt she?:p
Told myself that next week gonna be the last week Im going out(need to get tt someone's birthday present) untill O lvl ends.
So 9WEEKS OF NOT GOING OUT,I know at times I cant resist the temptation of going out or using computer,But i dnt care.
I must endure till the end,just 9WEEKS.I can do it.
I really cant wait for O LVL TO END.
When O lvl end,it's time for me to work again! And here comes the $$ !!
p/s:It's the facts.I seen it throughly,aft so many things that happened.

2009-09-10T15:20:00.001+08:00

Today geo's prelim was okay.
But for sure,my 11 marks already gone-case.
I did the question on food and development when im a development student.
well , at least im not the only one who had done question 4(:
I was blinded by the last 2 questions which are 14 marks and i dnt even bother to take a glance at question 3.
damn it #$%^&**%%
mr zainuddin so cunning,opps :x
nvm nvm.
I just hope I can pass,pass,pass.
breakfast again and i saw daniel O.O
hahah..this time round he saw me huh.not bad not bad :DD
tmr maths paper 2. I have been telling myself even though Tmr paper i wouldnt score well,but nvm,i gonna start pia.
SHU ROU,I have brought a maths assessment book with working solutions though!(HOPE YOU SEE THIS!)
IM GUAI OK,I LISTENED TO WHAT YOU HAD SAY! ;XXX
So after tmr paper,Im left with poa paper 1 , physics paper and mcq.
AND FINISH OF PRELIMS!
BUT O LVL COMING SOON!
RUBBISHHHHHHHH!LOL
I DUNNO WHY I HAD BEEN SAYING RUBBISH THIS FEW DAYS.
LALALA,WHO CARES.
I LIKED IT CAN LE:DD
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Guess ur words are more harsh than mine or rather us..hmm.
I have no comments or rather I dnt want say anything.
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Im going running soon,perhaps.when i managed to find the time.
Most probably during evening time.
Just too fat,growing fatter and fatter each day.
anyway,september holidays gonna end just like this.
B TO THE O THE R -I-N-G!
GOODBYE!

2009-09-06T14:31:00.001+08:00

OK.let's talk abt friday first.
friday night went to ktv yeah.
im such a big lightbulbs , cos there's 2 couples Im going with.
WenKun and her bf,my bro and his gf.
zzz
but still I had an enjoyable night with them.
went ktv from 10pm to 2am.
afterwhich i was mad tired.
but headed to geylang for dim sum
backed home ard 4?
and i slept at 4plus in the dawn.
then ytd morning at 9plus,i was being woken up by adam and hongye .
talked on phone with them till 10 plus.
and i couldnt slp anymore though im tired.
so went to watch mtv and prepared off to meet adam.
since he wanted to change his shirt at bugis,so i accompany him go lo.
then went chongpang before going bugis to get his new spec.
but ended up the spec had not been ready yet.
So went to orchard shopped ard and afterwhich bugis.
changed shirt and started hunting for present to give to sgn first year.
So ard 4 plus headed off to chongpang to get adam spec.
reached there ard 5 plus.
slacked at the mac awhile and hweeteng called and say they had already reached sch.
so went to causeway to meet them for hweeteng's farewell dinner sinced she had gone oversea today.
so had dinner at pastamania.
and walked ard cosway,slacked at foodcourt.
and by 8 plus i began to feel sleepy plus mad tired due to the 4 hours of slp.
so became very low and restless,paiiseh ppl ><
went home ard 9 plus.
so reached home at abt 10.
bathe and felt more refresh and managed to tahan till aft 12 plus before i headed to my lala land!
So,Im supposed to study for tmr practicals,but im not in the mood sia.lazy to study!
but still i will force myself ltr!
And im will spend my holidays studying,no matter what!

2009-09-04T16:36:00.003+08:00

today was social studies and chem paper 3.
screwed up both.
infact not really la hor.
Social studies essay was manageable though.
september holidays is here, like finally.
next prelims will be on monday,which are science practicals.
And papers will continue on thursday again.
Anyway tonight Im going KTV. I guess it's just the right time and the right choice to distress .
isnt it?
I have been quite stressed up with things lately(But till now , I still can endure it.)
人生都会有起，有落。
我只盼望我的每一天，都能充满地度过，我就满意了。。
So I have decided to spent my september holidays wisely to study.
Im wondering should i go for the gathering on tuesday not.(Guess most probably I wont be going.Shall see how then.)
SGN's one year is also coming soon.It's just 3moredays away.
This year time flew past so fast.I cant wait for O LVL TO FINISH!!
Once O lvl had ended , Im gonna say BYEBYE to some people!

the fugly truth;

2009-08-30T18:41:00.001+08:00

decided to blog since im not really in a good mood this few days.
things started arousing as usual.
the fugly truth and i knew it will happen.
thanks zj for telling me:D
And i knew sth.That is you dnt knw me well enough despite so many things that happened.
If you know me well enough,you wouldnt have say this kind of things.
I guess only chen hong understand me the most aft so many things that had happened.
5 years of friendship,not wasted at all.
Cant believe you will say those kind of words or should I know it's nothing surprising perhaps?:O
Shouldnt cherish you as much as I do in the past aft so many things that had happened because you never change all along.
So many things that happened,Those things that you had do to me.I cant believe I can forgive one person so easily.
This time round im not that fucking stupid anymore.
anyway,dnt think that when im in silence means i dnt know anything.
Im more observant than you,seriously.
A typical faker,faker
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To that fucking bitch who had interfered into another person rls.
Dont flirt with other ppl guy la.
such a flirt-.-
What for feeling guilty and act innocent when you claimed that you think that you didnt do anything wrong?
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But on the otherhand,im quite happy with my life.
Great friends around me.You know who you are,need not mention!^^

2009-08-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

TAGGED BY ADAM(:

1. Who was your last text from? My nuer,Peisi(:

2. Where was your default picture taken? Outside suntec de starbucks(:

3.Your relationship status?Single and Im happy with it(:

4.Have you ever lost a close friend? YES ):

5. What is your current mood?Happy perhaps?

6. How many siblings do you have? 2

7. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names? Kun Wei and Kun Han.

8. Where do you wish you were right now? Japan maybe.I missed those times..

9. Have a crazy side?DUH.Im 38 lao cum SGN(:

10. Ever had a near death experience? YES , for a few times already.

11.Something you do a lot?Staring into spaces,observing people,Thinks alot..

12.Angry at anyone now? Well , dnt think so.

13.What's stopping you from going for the person you like? Lol.I dnt like anyone(:

14.When was the last time you cried? I think it was ytd..?

15.Is there anyone/anything you would do anything for? YES!

16.What you think about when you are falling asleep?When can I sleep in peace?

17.Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? CHING SHU ROU!

18.What is your favorite song? No boundaries , new divide , 21 guns , bu yong dan xin and etc..

19.What are you doing right now?Doing this quiz.LOL

20. Who do you trust right now?Myself,my gfs,yan ling, jianda,hweeteng,adam and ?

21.Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?From Tom & Stefanie .

22.Have you kissed someone in the past week?NOPE.

23.Who is your friend that lives closest to you? Eh quite a few leh.Delphine,Shazana,Hweeteng and Asmira.

24.Describe your life in one word? Like the waves with high and low tides in between.

25.Who are you thinking of right now?No one?

26.What should you be doing right now?Doing homeworks,sleeping?

27.What are you listening to? No boundaries.

28.Who was the last person who gave you a hug?LOL.i forgot already.It's either my classmates or my friends ><

29.Who was the last person who yelled at you?No one , i think?

30.Do you act differently around the person you like? Maybe yes.

31.What is your natural hair color?brown-black?

32.Who was the last person to make you laugh?I guess it's zijing they all ba,during recess time(:

33.Who was the last person to make you angry?No one?

34. What do you hear? vehicles sound

35 Is your hair curly or straight?Consider straight bah.

36.Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before? Eh,dnt knw leh.

37.Do you have a best friend?YES

38.Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?No.

39.Do you use smiley faces on the computer?Yupp

40.Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?Yes.

41.Are you happy with life right now?I think so?

42.Are you currently jealous?No

43.What jewelry are you currently wearing?Worn during new year,but not now.

44.What were you doing on friday night?Go out eat with family , doing homeworks,using com..

45.Have you ever had your heart broken?YES

46.Have you ever broken someone's heart?I suppose no?

47.Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?Yes.

48.What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?My eyes..

49.How late did you stay up last night and why?12 plus cos i had a heavy dinner at 9 plus.

50.Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?nope.

The last lap.

2009-08-21T13:43:00.002+08:00

It's the last lap.
Just hang on , 2more mths to 'O' LVL.
Blog is officially closed till O lvl end.
Im gonna charge already!
Running marathon , never give up till the end.
Do miss me when Im gone!
HAHAH!
STUDY HARD PEOPLE!
(:
Contact me via my hp(:
BYE-BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2009-08-19T18:59:00.004+08:00

After many days of waiting , the day had finally arrived.
Today is the release of MT O lvl results.
Overall for sec 5 we did badly compared to last year.
My heart started throbbing damn fast,and I'm almost on the verge of going crazy.
And before we went forward to sign our results ,
there's only 1 student who got A2 .
and my first thought was that i wouldnt be the one.
I thought ghasis , caihong or rather tze yi will gt an A
But it turned out that Im the one who got A2.
I cant believe it,SERIOUSLY!
I even checked for the second time .
Ok,you may think i was exaggerating , but no ,I'm not.
And I thanked the people who had congratulated me and some even hugged me!
But I cant remember who were the ones who had hugged me because I was totally astonished by my results!
So yeah , proceed outside the spectrum.
and knowing that some of my friends got B3 and some even got C5 and breakdown,I just cant be happy anymore.
Because my first instinct was , Im the only one who got Distinction.
And people around me got other grades.
I dnt know how should i feel.
and seeing one of my friend cried untill so jialat,can I even be happy?
So I was sort of moody and people asked me to smile and i gave them a fake smile.
and normally my expressions was written on my face.
And I hope you guys really understand how I felt.
I dnt want to hurt you guys feeling by being happy though I deserve it,seriously.
And I have no idea what to do or say.
I happy with my results later you all not happy with me,say me this and that.
I not happy you all also say me this and that.
What you want me to do?
Im in a difficult position and I put myself in you all shoes.
But have you guys ever thought of why I dnt want to be happy infront of your?
Your think i want to have that kind of moody face?
No i dnt want and I dnt wish.
I feared that I would hurt you guys feelings ,you all can choose to believe or dnt believe .
I knew my results really turned out to be an unexpected to most of you and also to myself,
but this prove that my hardwork really paid off.
So I blogged what i feel and I dnt care anymore because this is my blog.
So for those who looked down on me, I will assure you that I will do well for my o lvls and work even harder.
You guys made me even more motivated.
So before i end my post.
gratefully thanks to my gfs.
yes, so sweet of christianna to told everyone that Im takin results today and asked them to msg me and wished me luck! And all this while, who had been believing that I can do well and have endless of confidence in me.Seriously thanks!
Sames goes to hweeteng and adam as well!
For those who had done well, well done and for those who are intending to retake , jiayou!
and i agree with what mr chan had say " To pass is an easy thing,But to get a Distinction it's not as easy as we think".
So once and for all thanks you people,regardless is it the hugs that you guys gave me , those word and msgs that grats me , THANKS!
LOVE YOU GUYS!(:
I can finally sighed with a big relief and concentrate on the other subjects!

It's those great times that worth reminiscing..

2009-08-17T20:41:00.003+08:00

i miss my gfs alot alot.It's been more than two weeks sinced i last saw them(except for rosanne uh)
so today was quite a boring day .
mt period changed chinese band and went to IT Resource Room 2 since there's aircon :D
Thn watched a chinese old film.
damn nice!
hehe!
so as I can say ,there's nth much happening today .
I wanted to post just for the sake of posting((:
So wednesday , release of MT results.
been looking forward to it for damn long.
Was feeling a bit confidence for myself , but yet still think that I wont do well.
It's just plain mixed feelings..
Well , i really hope I can do well because I cant afford to retake .
somemore prelims are starting in the next 2 weeks.
And frankly speaking , I already abandon those chinese thingy away from my head.
So if I got to retake it , I guess it's a struggle for me .REAL STRUGGLE.
So study plan had been handed in and I think i ought to follow it.
And once prelims start , Im not gonna go out because I remembered LiJuan told me that once prelims had started , we cant slack already.Must chiong all the way.
So prelims start on the 2nd of september ends on 18of september.
I really cant imagine that after prelims had end , 6more weeks to O LVL.
ROARRRS!
So Im gonna ground myself .I hope I can do it and Im so gonna ask my mum to scold me if I started using computer or going out.
Christ once told me before that motivation can only be found within one's self , and I guess the motivation is there already , as days are drawing nearer and nearer.
So not to forget those friends whom had gave me the support all this while and believing that I will do well.Those gfs , my SGN , laonehneh and etc etc.
lihua is thankful to your , really.
So shall end my post here.Will be posting again on wednesday regarding my MT results..
p/s : Guess wont be meeting my gf's till my o lvl ends ba ,same goes to H.H..
p/s : I hope TAIWAN will stay strong ,strong ! Have the will and determination to stay strong!(:

2009-08-16T00:26:00.003+08:00

muahaha! me and adam.my spongebob!!((:
-

woke up at 815 today.

early and tired like mad but no choice ,need to drag myself out of the bed as i am meeting grace to go library to study maths every sat!

So yes met her outside breadtalk at 930 and headed to the library.

while waiting,there's this small little boy so crazy.

im sorry to say small boy are crazy , but he is indeed one siao!:x

he at there played with his toy nvm.

he banged the shutter like fuck , nvm.

afterwards he started looking at me.

thn i was using my handphone to msg and he kpo and kept looking at my phone.

and me trying my very best not to let him see but he came nearer and nearer.

irritating like fuck ok.

all his actions made me and grace somhow laughed..

bobian lo , suay suay, a small boy standing in front of us .

I hope next week it wont happen again!

so started doing maths till all the way to 2pm.

halfway through rosanne texted me and she came to library but no seats available for her.

so when we went off , i told rosanne to come down and sit at our place.

so grace and me decided to lunch at KFC sinced it's been awhile we had KFC!

love it man!(:

so walked ard.

and met adam at 4pm and headed to tampines 1 to find sonia.

so reached there abt 510 and it was my first time going to tampines 1!

so walked over to gv to buy tickets for where gt ghost.

queue was quite long .

and aft tt walked ard for awhile and headed in .

watched the movie at 620pm.

and adam seriously cant watch ghost movies la.

imagine we were only watching jack neo film the movie and he screamed like shit!?!?

-.-

the whole theatre he was the only one shouting and screaming.

me and sonia at there asked him not to scream..

LOL

afterwhich movie ended ard 8 plus , walked ard.

and dinner at foodcourt.

home sweet home at 10 plus.

then when i reached home , i was walking under my block where the path that leads to my lift there.

then there's this lunatic guy who pointed at me and saying dunno wht thing at me.

i scared dao i quickly walked faster lo.

kao man , first time happening to me-.-

anyway reached home ard 11 plus and had a fun day out with them today!

p/s:housewife holidays should go out real soon,someday..

Total acceptance is unconditional love..

2009-08-14T20:04:00.002+08:00

mood got really better today!
and so today was quite a slacking day .
First two periods was supposed to be maths.But due the D&T and ART intensive , my class and 5 thinking only left with POA students.
so most of the POA students were from my class and hence 5 thinking only left around less than 15 students.
so we had to co-ordinate with their timetable and hence having pe at the first period instead of the period before recess . ZZZ
so aft pe was geo . geo lesson was pretty funny though.
thn aft which was maths lesson.
ms lee was not around hence mdm haslina came into our class and relief .
then she asked those students who do not want to revise or study to help her out.
so me,ty,grace and my and some of the students helped her by doing some stuffs .
soon after mrs karen tan came up .
then 10 mins before our actual recess ,we were released as mrs karen tan let us off for early recess.
sinced we helped them do stuffs (:
aft recess was CCD period.
thn before teachers came in.
my class and some 5thinking guys were so crazy please.
they played o-ya-beh-ya-sum thn the odd one out got to do forfeit.
and one of the forfeit was damn disgusting and gross please.
kah hou was the odd one out and suay suay he need to lick the whiteboard!
LICK .
WAHPIANG EH.
Then gt one time benjamin need to bang his head against the cupboard .
imagine the pain.
ZOMG.
so teachers came in..
and it sucks , asked us to do study plan -.- zzz
all of us were complaining that we reached home alr want 7pm from monday-thursday.
still need to do homeworks and studied for tests .where gt time to study and revise?
so need to do a studyplan out and to be hand in on monday ..
so aft sch stayed back with my to do maths.
sinced i knew that the moment i reached home i will sleep , so might as well stay at school.
so was doing maths halfway in the canteen.
then dunno wht happened to my hor.
she nearly fell down cos her bench turnover -.-
funny dao bao ok!
those schoolmates sitting next to us were laughing at my.
hilarious bodoh!
thn had a minor catch-up with jinhui!:D
haahs!he came back for his cca though.
so stayed in sch till 6pm and home sweet home.
study plan change to sat.
so will be visiting the library from tmr onwards.
so dnt be surprised to see in the library early in the morning!(:
p/s : we create rules inside our head for how people should behave.When people break the rules, We resent them.
Resenting people for ignoring our rules is absurd..

melancholic;emotional.

2009-08-13T21:21:00.002+08:00

sch had been rather fine .
lots of laughters and laughters.
feeling emotional this few days .
no idea why .
like wht i had say , is my heart controlling my mind now .
it kind of sucks.
no idea why , im back to the emotional state.
Need to get rid of it soon!
should be studying , but im not studying.
Hate emotional period , way too much.
No idea why I can be high at school , but when Im at home ,
things started changing.
Am i used to being acting high in school so that people will think that Im real happy?
sighh .
I realised school is the only place that can make me stop worrying about anything and I seem more happy in school.
Mt results will be out next wed.
that's all.
i hope I will get over this emotional period soon ,soon ...

2009-08-10T20:50:00.000+08:00

fuck blogger for being down again!i cant upload photos -.- zzz
so ok, today was an awesome day!
so i woke up at 10am today , slacking and reading the roald dahl book .
was supposed to meet ben at 12pm outside breatalk.
but we , consists of me , sq , zj and ty , were smart enough to leave hse at 12 plus .
cos we knew that he will be late!
so the 4smartass-es made him waited outside the breadtalk for half an hour or so.
lunched at swensens since it's ben treat :D
we were crapping at there and took more than half an hour to start ordering.
and i told ben to go to cathay to buy tickets since we decided to catch a movie aft having our lunch.
so we had great laughs in the swensens!
I swear .
haha!
too bad blogger dnt allow me to post pictures at this moment!
and ozj ah she did sth so embarrassing please.
LIKE FOR GOD SAKE!-.-
So leave swensens at ard 2 plus and headed to NTUC fairprice awhile.
on the way there, two aunties called ozj and lty they ran across the traffic light-.-
wahpiang eh.
it's not as if the traffic light will not be working for the next min.
so aft buying finish the things.
walked back to cosway and the same thing happened again-.-
and ozj being lamed , she called me -.-
sinced she wanted to lame uh , i also lamed back with her lo!
LOL .
so afterwhich we headed to arcade to play.
play till ard 4.10 headed to cathay since movie is at 4.20
so we watched G.I joe tgt with leekm.
G.I joe was a fantastic movie!
thumbs up totally!
HAHA!
So movie ended ard 6 plus and home sweet home!
I hope tmr will be taking back the MT results!
Im looking forward to it but at the same time im anxious abt it!
GOD BLESS MAN!
GOOD LUCK TO ALL! :DDD

Sometimes things dnt go the way which we had wanted.But we got no choice left , to accept it and continue moving on..Life is meant to be this way..

2009-08-07T19:53:00.011+08:00

FIRSTLY ,HAPPY 11 MTHS TO SGN!

and i still think white specs suits her more ;DD

so,sch was boring today!

then aft sch went home prepared and meet ht at ard 12 at the bus-stop..

and was planning to eat mac before watching de movie..

but mac was occupied with a lot of people..

zzz

so decided to walk ard and had mac aft the movie.

so watched 'UP'

and it was really a fabulous movie!

it's way better than ice age 3.

It's full house and im smart enought to think of buying the tickets in advance first.

so movie ended ard 3 and headed to mac!

my double fish-flllet burger!

damn nice!(:

finally , i got to eat it!

THUMBS UP!

slacked in the mac till ard 4 plus and walked ard..

leave cosway at ard 5 plus and walked to ht's hse there to slack till 7 plus and home sweet home!

It's a fun day out though!(:

anyway , batam trip was cancelled .

so decided to stay at home tmr and sunday to study!

i should stop procrastinating and start studying.

so made a pact with myself to go library every friday from next week onwards to study , and only use computer when it's necessary .

Dnt want to disappoint myself ,and most importantly my mum .

L1R4<15

I strongly believed that if i really put in efforts and studied for it , this target is achievable!

So no matter what , im going to start my engine .

As I realised there's a lot of things I need to catch up with . Thus no more slacking anymore.

so guys stop dreaming , wake up .

75 more days to start of o lvl practical.

and release of mt results on next tuesday , most probably!

p/s : sometimes we got to stand up when the ending isnt easy..

CHILDISH GIRL .

2009-08-05T20:01:00.003+08:00

life has been great for me so far.

i have been enjoying my life right now .

though there might be some problems im facing right now , but yeah all those happiness kept my mind occupied away .

so it's a good thing .

anyway just wanted to post abt sth.

come on la.

17 years old liao , still so childish for what?

is ur mouth too smelly(i think stinky tofu taste even nicer than you man!) ?

anyhow create rumours.

fuck you for doing that.

and what's the worst thing , you even maligned a friend whom is a good friend to you , whom goes to sch with you everyday .

why be the scapegoat ? since you are the one whom had anyhow started blabbering this nonsensical rumours , why push the blame to other people?!

do you know what's the meaning of friends not?

i pitied my friend , for being so nice to you and to be friend with you seriously .

I know im not perfect or rather im not a perfect friend , but i wouldnt do this kind of thing .

I feel like scolding you right infront of your face , and wht's the worst still , i still remembered you maligned me in friendster .

and now you maligned ur own friend?!

I GT NTH TO SAY.

EVEN A BIMBO IS NICER THAN YOU, FOR GOD SAKE!

p/s : tmd , sq , grace and my bullied me today! all gang up , good ah!

p/p/s : IM LOOKING FORWARD TO FRIDAY MAN! I WANT TO EAT MY DOUBLE FISH-FILLET BURGER and of cos looking forward to sth else(: ! <333

A picture says a thousand words.

2009-08-02T17:17:00.009+08:00

AS YOU CAN SEE , THE CAT JUST SHITTED ! ><Playing the king game and i was suppose to piggy back mao the birthday girl and walked one round on the rock thingy , barefooted!! it's pain , but it's fun though! :p
part of the girls
spot me if you can . i was being squeezed by wendy sister!TT
HAHA! THIS IS FUNNY! SHU ROU AND SAMMIE! ;P

haha! wengying! :p
gays?! lol
mao mao!((:
see rosanne face , so guailan please! :x

DEPRIEVED OF CHILDHOOD!
ME AND BIRTHDAY GIRL! ;DD
MAO , ME AND WENDY!
Adam;p
5DYNAMIC!!
hehhe! ;D
SMILEEEEEEEESSS! ;DD
Wendy sister and I! Sister rocks yeah ? ;DD
SGN!(:

Hweetenggggg! ;p

ms joan chia and me! all the best , teacher! (:
My hand! ;p
ONG ZIJING CAUGHT SLEEPING DURING POA LESSON!!! ;PP

2009-08-01T22:52:00.001+08:00

ONG ZI JING! DNT COME KILLING ME! ;P
MATILDA TAY! AHAH! DNT COME KILLING ME TOO! ;P

ANYWAY , JUST TO SUM UP I HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!
SO YES HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATILDA , ZIJING AND DANIEL!
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MATILDA : HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH! HOPE YOU ENJOYED TODAY!
LIFE HAS BEEN FUN WITH YOU AROUND!
STAY HAPPY AND OPTIMISTIC YEAH!
THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND!
((:
RMB WE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU ! ^^

ZIJING : HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
IM GLAD THAT AFT MTHS OF COLD WAR , WE ARE STILL BACKED AS FRIENDS.
REALLY GLAD ..
DURING THOSE TIMES , I LEARNT ALOT OF THINGS .
REALLY THANKS FOR THE THINGS THAT YOU HAD TAUGHT ME!
SO YEAH , LET'S JIAYOU TGT FOR O LVL!;DD

DANIEL : HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
HOPE YOU WILL EXCEL MORE IN UR BASKETBALL LIFE!
AND JIAYOU FOR UR A LVL!
CHEERS! ;DD

Once bitten , twice shy .

2009-07-30T18:48:00.001+08:00

ok.
it's been awhile since i last updated .
wanted to upload photos , but as you can see . blogger is still screwed up .
After peaceful days had arrived , bad things came after .
Life , it's supposed to be in this way isnt it ?
Been busy with school-life .
and seriously , i think i had not put in much effort to study for O LVL .
shu rou please come and scold me man!
LOL
so , tmr it's the last day of JULY!
left with barely 3 mths .
TIME TO WAKE UP!
so today i went back home aft recess .
The headache which was killing me plus if i didnt go home , i wonder how am i going to survive till 6pm .
today sch end at 6pm , so i decided to go home to have a rest .
slept for 4 hours plus , i know im a pig!LOL
so , felt so much better aft the nap!
thanks to those who had cared , greatly appreciated it .
liping and iffah also went back home too.
take care!
lots of people are not feeling well nowadays ,so do take care people!
so that's all!
-

p/s : whole body aching due to ytd 2.4 run ):
p/p/s : happy , optimistic all the way !(:

enjoyable day! ;DD

2009-07-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

today i went out with that idiot hweeteng.
was supposed to go out with adam too , to watch ice age 3 .
but yeah , this unlucky guy fell sick again last night.
so we postponed our ice age 3 movie trip to next week?
so met hweeteng at 1215.
headed to foodcourt for lunch .
and yes , i let hweeteng to be the first one to eat finish (:
she ate her bian mian instead of ban mian! :p
so aft eating.
headed to orchard .
went far east , and we brought our matchy shoes :D
so walked ard the at the ion too
ion was packed with ppl , so decided not to shop much.
aftermaths , next destination was bugis .
so we took train to cityhall and walked over to bugis .
brougbt my highwaist skirt there(:
then we walked back to cityhall.
and went to raffles shopping centre de starbucks to chill out for a few hours?
and left cityhall at ard 6 plus.
reached woodlands and headed to library since i wanted to borrow english books.
so afterall , it's a tiring but a fun day out!{:
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P/S : BLOGGER SUCKS LA , CANT UPLOAD PHOTOS ZZZ
P/P/S : ADAM YOU BETTER TAKE GOOD CARE OF URSELF NEXT TIME!IF NOT I WHACK YOU!

Laughing is the best medicine afterall(:

2009-07-23T18:40:00.002+08:00

I REALLY ENJOY SCH THIS FEW DAYS.
I HAD BEEN LAUGHING LIKE MAD .
im an entertainer to my dear friends you know ?!
haha!
Ytd went super high at canteen with grace ,pei si , my , ty and xn .
they were shocked that I REALLY DO THOSE STUPID ACTIONS OR RATHER STUFFS!
I MADE THEM LAUGH LIKE MAD , IM PROUD OF MYSELF!
BECOS I CAN MAKE PPL LAUGH!ROFLS!
ok ,i shall stop being bhb here .
grace even asked me whether im ok not -.- ,when im perfectly FINE!
so we were so hook up in playing childish games!
somemore during pe we played catching and virus , and mr sanjay see us played , he laughed like mad too .
our class is his entertainer((:
so this few days had been real childish .
played games like 007 , "frog jump" and catching :D
so yes , lc was abit tricky thoughh !
hope i will do well , seriously .
thn today during poa lesson , was so bored that me , my , shaz , jian da , azhari and andy was playing oo7 , frog jump !
hoho!
how cool can we get?!
so tmr farewell party for ms joan chia .
hope tmr will be an enjoyable day too!((:

imy , i suppose ..

2009-07-21T18:28:00.008+08:00

I hope we will let bygones be bygones .
no point dwelling over it .(:
-
anyway ,sch was fun today!
I really love going to school even though we might stay untill very late for extra class!
but hey , it's fun !
today english oral workshop was fun and funny and it helps alot to us !
haha!
-
So yes the com was crashed by him -.-
now using bro com since he is working!
latop is fully booked by him ,unless tt bloody bro is not at home .
so yes ,tmr lc! WILL DO MY BEST.
MY LAST 20 MARKS!
I WILL OPEN MY EYES TO SEE THE QUESTION CLEARLY .
I WILL OPEN MY EARS WIDE TO LISTEN CAREFULLY !
and yes , i will stay optimistic no matter what .
this few days have been telling myself to stay happy , happy and happy !
I might not be strong , but I will try my best to be happy!
Im feeling better nowadays becos classmates or rather friends around me , made me laugh like hell .
sometimes , i really wonder .
if 5dynamic , without andy the joker ,
without farhan and jian da who never fail to make me laugh when im down ,
i guess it's not fun already .
so yes , i enjoyed going to school and it's fun with some of my classmates .
It's the last year , so cherish it and im cherishing it !
Had quarrels , fun , laughters and joys with them .
there are some , whom I knew them for 5 years already .
It's a long journey to me .
through this 5 years , alot of us had indeed changed alot .
So anyway , I greatly appreciated to those who care alot for me (:
and to friends around me who are sad or whatever , stay happy .
CHEERS THOUGH ! ^^
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p/s : It's a mistake , and I guess ignoring is the best way ..
p/p/s : And im so violent that i broke jian da ruler today ! opps :x

if you were me , things would be better ..

2009-07-19T21:52:00.007+08:00

what do you want from me ?
you made my life miserable for dunno how many years .
and I only made you unhappy for two days and you started calling me a bitch .
You really did make the fucking com spoilt , and yet you scolded me off when i told you , you are the one who spoilt it.!
And you say you are not responsible for it ?
so who is responsible for it ?
TELL ME LA .
I didnt even called you names and yet you started calling me a bitch and scolded me off in twitter .
You wanted me to die , and now I'm so going to tell you that , yes , i feel like dying .
the earlier the better .
you think i fucking want to see your face ?!
For the years that you had been mocking me , I am tolerating , enduring it .
You didnt even show me a single ounce of respect , what for should I even respect you ?
I really had enough already .
NO ONE WILL EVER UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL .
I tried to be happy and entertain peoples .
Because No one will like it when Im low , but I got no choice.
Trying my very best not to be low at times .
I did really stupid stuffs to really keep me high , and I dnt care how people think of me .
Through all this , am I not strong enough ..?
It's really hard to be strong at times .
It's tough , real tough ..
leave me alone , i will be fine ..

no feelings can express it .

2009-07-18T23:41:00.007+08:00

us((:

wahaha , negative me , sanne and kimberly((:

Say CHEESE ! ;DD

I AM BURSTING OUT IN LAUGHTERS ;P

today is quite a fun day .
im lazy to elaborate much .
sorry ppl .
infact i just want to post abt sth else ..
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been thinking alot when i was on the train back home with mao , christ .
been thinking about the happenings that happened before and after .
sometimes i really hope that humans can live twice in this world .
I rmb one of the actress which passed away 2 years back .
and aft 2 years , life still revolves around and etc .
i wanted to know how will this world be when im gone .
you might be thinking that im talking crap here , but hey serious .
i really wonder .
Why must we come to this world when sooner or later ,each of us will be depart from this world .
And we will know nth about this world.
I dnt get it , seriously .
-
Many things are happening , and the thing that is affecting me the most is my family problems .
Sometimes i feel like giving two tight slaps on my bro face , for the way he treated me .
Sometimes I feel like shouting at my dad , asking him to stop being this way .
Sometimes i feel like telling my mum not to be over sensitive and paranoid .
I'm really sicked and tired of it already .
I'm sicked and tired of the quarreling , noises in this family .
-
And while chatting with christ and mao on the train ,
I just realised that I have many friends , but I dnt have much close friends .
come to think of it , somehow i feel so ..well i dunno what to say .
sometimes I'm really tired on putting a mask .
why cant i be the real me ?
and at times , i cant stand , but to feel being alone with some peoples .
this suckish feeling , who will understand ?
Im trying very hard to be selfish .
And im trying very hard to ignore those peoples who dnt fucking give a shit about me .
Im trying , Im trying alot of things .
I hope it will work out .
And I realised who are my real friends and who are my fake friends .
Some friends might be using me , so i shall not be a fool to let you do it .
Some friends show me attitude whenever they like it .
Some friends wanted me to tolerate their attitude when they cant even tolerate my attitude at times .
Some friends abandon me at a side .
Some friends treat me hot and cold .
so what is the ending ?
I dunno ...
-
p/s : Im not going to install MSN , since my bro just reformat the com .
It doesnt make any difference to me since most of the times im appearing offline .
so you guys wont be able to see me on online for weeks or rather months.
Untill i really find the meaning of having MSN , i will download it .
but currently , no .

Back to childhood days ..

2009-07-17T22:40:00.005+08:00

I miss the old me ,where i look slimmer and my hair was short and abit spiky :/

today was real awesome .!

Me and some of my classmates actually played catching during PE LESSON!

somemore i think we are the first batch to play this "childish" game!

but who cares ?!

It really help alot to us .

It helped us to release alot of our STRESS!

And i guess during every pe lesson we are gonna play that !

OMG .

running ard parade square , tsktsk .

anyway i ran halfway and headed to canteen to hide .

I went there to talk with ht & co .

muahah!

and took my height and weight .

i grow taller and fatter!

I am fat , super fat .

need to cut down weight already .

I want my old weight back !):

Aft sch headed to cosway with ht,adam and sonia .

had lunch at foodcourt.

walked ard , then me and ht went home first .

thn i ard 5 plus headed out again to meet rosanne,bz,sr and eh for movie .

I nearly watched the movie till i fell asleep .

I think im too tired ,cant blame! Xx

so movie ended ard 905?

and headed to pizza for dinner.

and home sweet home!

tmr out with gfs too((:

i shall do my maths homeworks later!

so to summarise up , today was a FUN day!

:DD

2009-07-16T04:56:00.004+08:00

I guess im the only one awake right now !

ytd i slept at 830pm .

super early i know .

but bobian , im too tired and thus i went off to slp aft dinner !

and i woke up at 430am .

haha!

I know i might be abnormal blogging at this hour , but who cares?

huahua!

ltr still need go sch ,and i hate today .

becos almost all the subjects are one period ,bag gonna be so bloody heavy zzz

and sch end late somemore -.-

came back home need to study for tmr geo test again .

anyway ytd was a pretty funny day .

i hope today will be a better day .

((:

every little happenings that i had seen ,

makes me realised how much you had change ...

[EDIT]

today school was real funny and fun !

POA test was ok , i hope i can do well for it (:

and most of my classmates are real cute or funny i can say ?

they actually played hide and seek during the ss remedial since there's no teacher ard

haha!

so funny please .

and maths is really driving me crazy .

real crazy .

i haven even start doing on coordinate geometrey and ppl are almost finishing mensuration ?!

GAHHH .

I seriously need time .

guess i shall spent less time using com , and not going out often and etc .

weekends is for me to stay at home and do those piles of homeworks .zzz

tmr watching harry potter with gf's

so i shall end my post here .

need to study for tmr geo test (:

goodbye .

[/EDIT]

better in time

2009-07-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

i hadnt been in a good mood since ytd .

today was terrible too .

just now , my mum scolded me for nth . -.-

and i felt so fuck up

why must you be so paranoid ?

dnt get it at times .

sigh

i hope tmr will be a better day ..

A very important person deep down in my heart .

2009-07-13T20:23:00.005+08:00

this post is specially delicated to someone ..

and that is my SGN ,hweeteng aka patrick(:

i shall use orange colour to post since orange is ur favourite colour ! ;D

Ok ,where shall i start .

Hmm .

Thanks for everything , and thanks for the chat just now .

Thanks for making me laugh .

Im pretty shocked that we could be so closed now infact ? heehee

Though we will never know what will happen next or rather for the next few years .

but yes , all I know that is I cherished this friendship alot alot .

I will treasure it while I can .

I dnt believe in forever so does you , but hope this friendship will last long long :DD

Im glad that you will share some of your problems with me , Im really glad .

Trust is essential in a friendship , and Im glad that you trust me .

Be strong always , cause i know you are one (:

Be happy and that's what i ask from you ! {:

And you are a funny and humurous person okay , stop thinking you are not a funny person .

Remember , i will always be here for you ok! (:

Love you!

In addition , thanks jian da and tze yi (:

Not a so-good day .

2009-07-13T17:56:00.006+08:00

what am i suppose to say?

from whatever you did , it says it all .

trust , i guess there's no trust .

you can say im unreasonable , im stubborn , im childish , im tyrant .

for whatever you want to say .

I DNT CARE .

dnt bother telling me i shall not care abt it .

even if you want to tell me , i shall not be bothered to care for it .

BECAUSE I CARED and this is what i deserved to get , I SHALL NOT CARE THEN.

AND THAT FUCKING PERSON .

JUST WATCH WHATEVER YOU HAD SAY .

If i cared too much ,

tell me straight in my face .

So i wont be bothered to care for you anymore .

This time round i must be selfish .

_|_

I SHALL NOT CARE FOR YOU ANYMORE .

BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I HAD GOT IN RETURN .

BACK FOR LONG I SUPPOSE .

2009-07-12T20:12:00.005+08:00

BE URSELF DAY 07 .TWO YEARS BACK! SHUQING AND ME!

I MISS MY THE TIMES WHEN I WAS SHORT HAIR!!

IM BACK !

ANYONE MISSES ME? HAHA!

CURRENTLY HAVE THE URGE TO BLOG .

SO YES , IM HERE!

LIFE HAS BEEN REAL HECTIC FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS!

HOMEWORKS,TESTS,HOMEWORKS,TESTS .

ANYWAY JUST SAT FOR MY MT ORAL .

MERIT IS WHT IM HOPING FOR RIGHT NOW .

ytd had a pretty fun day out with patrick and mr krabs(:

heehee!

I'm glad we still meet up that often , and hope this will go on and on .

:DD

i brought two new shorts ytd (:

been wanting to get new shorts for mths!

so yes , i finally brought it ! (:

haahah!

anyway ,for the past few hours i had been slacking due to the fact of the noise pollution .

and guess ltr i will just read through chem .

sch tmr .

and will be going back home late again . tired life !

I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT SATURDAY!

GOING MEET UP WITH THE BUNCH OF GIRLFRIENDS! HAAHS!

((:

ok , shall end here right now .

you know we cared for you , but if that's what you want to hide from us ,lie to us .

i gt nth to do , i cant say anything .

just know that , me or rather us will always be here for you .

for i'm still ur friend , am I ?

A million words .

2009-06-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

ytd went shopping with ht & adam at far east .
then went to a shop name called " options"
the attitude of the man or rather sissy or rather gay so suck .
lousy attitude they had -.-
nvm .
shopped ard .
bought a new shoe , and a top :D
so had dinner at hong kong cafe at ard 8 (:
thn ate went back woodlands to catch a movie called ghost of girlfriends past .
i think it's not bad la ..
movie ended ard at 11 plus .
so we walked back to our home as they were tonning at my hse.
played poker cards , chit-chatting , slacking ;D
both of them really went super high ard 4 plus in the dawn ;O
serious , super high ! LIKE ZOMG!
thn headed to admiralty for breakfast and ht gt abit tipsy after drinking 2 cans of beer :x
so home ard 7 plus and slacked ,sleep for awhile .
thn in the noon headed to viva for lunch and slacked at void deck .
was supposed to go shopping today , but guess everyone was so freaking tired , so we cancel the shopping trip alr (:
but afterall it was quite a fun time spent tgt with them ,esp those super high moments of them ;D
-
p/s: i freaking hate online homeworks -.- zzz

2009-06-17T22:01:00.003+08:00

ytd japan bbq was a success~
i brought 14 of them to ecp .
and Regina named me motherhen & sergeant GOH .
lmaos laaa
:x
on the way there , had a great chat with kexin , hui xian , regina and shann ling .
they really made me laughed like hell !
kexin & hui xian was totally highed , that they laughed non-stop ! OMG
LOL
ok , thn reach there play some games~~
thn sq accompanied me to the seaside there .
So cooling and the waves sound made me so relaxed and calm .
just love the waves sound((:
so bbq started ard 5 plus or 6?
ate alot , and the swensens ice-cream was awesome! :DD
thanks to inn siang for the cake !
thn I gt to cycle for awhile tgt with clare and shann ling (:
thn throwing water bombs at aref was duper uber fun !
haha ,birthday bash :DD
thn ard 7 plus zaki went super high that he took the flour and poured on us ( almost everyone)
I was kena too but not as worst as sq , aref and faris .
THEY WERE LIKE GHOST !
BAHAHA !
went to take bus at ard 10 ?
thn on the bus was talking with sq , grace , lz and fidar .
super funny talks we had :DD
reached home ard 11 plus .
and it was fun , hope there will be more outing again ! ((:
then today , i woke up at 9 plus .
prepared and pia cab down to christ hse .
and who knows im the first one to reach ,thought i will be late !?
waited for mao , sr , eh and kimberly ..
and ard 11 plus headed up to christ hse .
guess she was quite shocked ?
thn took photos and i was known for being the unglam person for today .
sr took alot of my unglam photos !)):
thn 1 plus headed to town to eat at hong kong xin wang cafe .
laugh and laugh and laugh .
:DD
aft tt we took neoprints !
HAHAH !
thn christ went off first.
then the rest of us went shopping~~
ended up only sr and kim brought a top ..
mao went off ard 5 ?
thn me ,eh , kim and sr continued shopping till abt 6 .
thn kimberly went to vivo .
while the 3 of us waited for christ at marina bay and home sweet home .
today was a fun day !
guess christ really enjoyed herself ?
okay , i shall end here , having headache again ..
zzz
tmr and friday will be a fun day again i suppose ..?
-
p/s : im blooody pissed off with her .

2009-06-15T21:36:00.003+08:00

Alice , christianna , zijing , grace & me ..
i cant imagine !
omgness . i was browsing through facebook.
did manage to find some photos during 2007 when some of us host UK students .

-

today met up with lz & co to plan and buy stuffs for tmr bbq .
met them 11 at mac .
thn ard 11 plus headed to old woodlands de sheng shiong .
brought the stuffs till abt 1 plus .
headed to lz hse .
slacked ard ..
at there plan games , watched tv and gosh inn siang, aref they all watched a very disgusting video -.-
LIKE GOD .
SO GROSS !
ok , so ard 3 plus left me ,sq and grace at lz hse .
was there slacking all the way till abt 5 ?
thn home sweet home .
i want to get sunburnt leiis .
but the saddest thing is that I'm not going early with them .
i need to bring those sec 3 there~~
ok , so meeting them at noon .
nevertheless , i can slp till quite late !
HAHA
so it's a good thing too :p
hope tmr will be fun ba ! ((:
tmr im so going to rent bike and go cycling.
it's been long since i cycled ! ):
-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUQING AHGONG!
HAHA !(:

what's wrong ? tell me straight to the point .

2009-06-14T21:06:00.004+08:00

having a terrible headache now .
wtf -.-
ard 4 plus went to IT fair with family and both of my cousins .
today was the last day , and damn lots of ppl .
it's much more ppl compared to friday when I went there with ht , adam and his mum .
so squeezy ok ..
so brought a monitor , printer and 2 thumdrives back (:
left IT fair at ard 6 plus and headed to marina square for dinner .
had lamian for dinner .
omgness , oiishii-neh !
HAHA !
((:
THUMBS UP!!
;DD
wanted to shop de ,but due to the fact that we are carrying our stuffs along , so didnt shop around .
so new monitor , and printer .
woohoo !
yes ah ((:
that's all for today uh , cant stand my headache anymore ..

2009-06-13T20:59:00.010+08:00

Firstly , I had watch finished BOYS OVER FLOWERS ALREADY !
MUAHAHA !
ytd i chiong finished :DD
ending abit sucks lo :/
ok , so i hadnt been updating for a few days .
so lazy to update and nth much to update luh .
life is getting more interesting or boring perhaps ?
;DD
ok,so today i met up with my girlfriends !
yes , like finally laaa
met up with rosanne,sr,mao,eh,kim and mag .
went to foodcourt for lunch .
lots of funny things happen .
thn walked ard .
thn kimberly left first .
afterwhich went to buy sq birthday present and also popular to get some stuffs .
haha ,aft tt went to arcade played .
as usual we went to play the throwing of balls game :DD
had much fun there and rosanne threw the ball and my head kena hit by her :x
thn ard 4 plus ,walked to matilda hse .
thn most of the time , me , mao , eh and sr was taking photos there!
LOL .
did quite alot of stupid actions lo .
but stupid and unglam actions are the most memorable one !
HAHA !
thn aft much time , finally done finish it .
and hope , CHRISTIANNA will like it !
=DDD
thn ard 7 left matilda hse .
thn me , rosanne ,eh and mag headed to mos for dinner while sr went home first .
had a fun time with them .
photos are with matilda and sr .
so wont be uploading any photos !
(((:
-
I hate it when my bro is at home :/
-
p/s : HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINHUI ! :DDD
p/p/s :those words still lingered ard my mind .
i nvr knw that this is how you think of me .
it hurts so much , but yet im feeling immune at the same time .
sigh ..

untitled .

2009-06-10T21:48:00.005+08:00

i thought , i think .
today skip POA remedial , as i was so not feeling well .
went for school for the ecareers thing .
and quite funny lo , esp someone in my class de future job .
OMG PLEASE -.-
and im broke (sooner)
many people's birthdays are coming up .
next week will be a packed week again ?
i felt so refresh and energetic now , though my throat is killing me !
I slept from 10+ to 3 + today .
say im a pig or whatever , i also dnt care ;x
IM SO GOING TO BUY FRUITS TMR AND STUFF MYSELF WITH FRUITS
I need to get well , as soon as possible .
there's BBQ awaiting for me next week !

Whenever you remember I'll be there ..

2009-06-09T22:01:00.008+08:00

A FUN Day out with hweeteng and adam .
we fooled ard IKEA , TAKING TONS OF PHOTOS OVER THERE .
DOING STUPID ,SILLY THINGS THERE.
BUT I ENJOYED IT SO MUCH !
AND IM SO DUMB THAT I BANGED MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL AGAIN .
FOR THE THIRD TIME , SAME SPOT SOMEMORE -.-
AND HWEETENG WAS LAUGHING AT ME NON-STOP .!
EVIL HER .:X
nvr really had so much fun for long already .
thanks for making my days so fun , guys ! (:
LOVE BOTH OF YOU !
no matter what happen , i will be there for you guys !
let's stay strong tgt !
p/s : i'm too lazy to upload pictures plus this laptop is very laggy . -.-
-
i find it hard to ..
i know there are somethings that made you down and you dnt feel like saying it.
since you dnt want to say abt it , i cant force you .
but have you ever think of how am i feeling whenever you told me you are down or something like tt , but yet i cant do anything to it , regardless whether izzit to cheer you up at least ?
maybe you dnt feel this way perhaps or maybe im being selfish to think this way .
well , i cant do anything .but yeah , i just hope that you will be happy and dnt think too much , my dear friend .
i hope euu will see this post , becos i find it hard to tell euu through the other ways?

Dont cry because it's over;Smile because it had happened

2009-06-06T00:00:00.003+08:00

i dnt care whether you people trust me not , for me myself dnt even know what's the real meaning of trust .

Friends come and go .
not much stay with you through thick and thin .
I have been through all kinds of friendship problems ,
regardless is it people backstabbing me , left me in a lurch and etc .
start to realise being normal friends with peoples are more relaxing than being best friends .(though i Have quite a number of close friends right now ((: )
Because we do not need to care so much for their feelings , and afterwards we could just joke around again . You wont come to think of it , am i being rude to that person and etc ?Will that person talk bad things behind my back ?
well , light reveals one truth self .
For now , im just trying to be normal friends with some of the peoples .
Whether they trust me or not is their problem already , i dnt mind .
Being neutral , that's the only thing i will do .
I wont follow with any of the crowd .
All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.

2009-06-04T12:29:00.002+08:00

im feeling super sad,stressed right now .
i know i didnt do well for my exams , i know i didnt .
but i had tried my very best .
somemore some of the papers are quite difficult .
aft i took my report book ytd , i realised the only subject that i had improved was chinese and humanities .
the others deproved hell lot .
but i told myself not to think about it , because there's no point crying over spill milk .
untill today , when i came back home from school , you nagged at me .
and there you makes me think of my results now .
i will work harder for my prelims i can assure you .
but can you stop nagging at me about my results .
i had enough already .
everyday need to wake up so early to study and came back home you still want to nagg about my studies .
im feeling super stressed ..
cant i just have time for relaxation ?
O lvl is coming in around 4 more plus month time and i know about it .
i seriously do , but can you just stop nagging at me .
didnt you see the efforts i put in for my mid-year ?
i am also very disappointed with my results ,but do you think i want it too ?
freak ..
and whoever i want to hang out with , there's no way you can restrict me .
I'm 17 and i know what im doing .
Im old enough to think for all those things .
i shall end here , before i continue being more emo again ..

2009-06-01T22:06:00.003+08:00

one paper down .
and im somehow relief .
i hope i can do well , yes !
anyway thanks to those who had wish me luck regardless it was in msn or through sms .
for etc , mao, rosanne , hweeteng , christine , adam , zijing , ailing , jeremy , andrew , sonia , shu qing , christianna , pauline and the others i forget le .
esp , rosanne , mao , christianna , pauline , adam , hweeteng and shu qing.
thanks for believing that i can do it and telling me to be confidence all this while .
really THANK YOU you guys!
i hope my results will turn out to be good though (:
so aft paper went out with ht , adam and sonia .
went to watch monster vs alien .
quite ok only nia :x
so yes , tmr still need to go back sch for lessons , boring ..
lots of funny things happen today .
and i felt much more happier than before , maybe becos i had done my o lvl MT alr !
HAHA
and not forgetting , chen lao shi for her guidance ! ((:

TMRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

2009-05-31T10:01:00.003+08:00

OMGNESS .
IT'S TMRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !
WISH ME BEST OF LUCK YEAH ?!
JIAYOU AND GOOD LUCK EVERYONE YO!
LET'S DO OUR BEST TMR !
DNT LET OUR EFFORTS WENT DOWN THE DRAIN YEAHHH !!
;DDDD
GAMBATEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

(EDIT)
I'm ready for tmr paper , but i'm still feeling abit of nervousness and lack of this confidence .
i scared i will blank out when i see the questions !
omg , god bless me !

de-stressssssssssssssss

2009-05-29T19:08:00.005+08:00

the last night at japan . i missed those times ..
and me and couple of ppl went crazy running at the shopping mall to get last min gifts ;O

ms lee,me,my and grace .

ahah .ty;graceand me . i knw i look funny . :x

ugly pose ?

just simply smiles
today roadrun .

thanks my's dad for bringing us there.

whole class was walking .

and me , ty grace and my walked halfway and walked shortcut :x

so aft roadrun , went to amk hub with ht&co .

went for macs .

and afterwhich walked ard and went back cosway walking arddd .

thn ard 5 .

me , ht , adam and sonia decided to play volley so went to ht hse there play .

i felt so much better .

i aint feeling tt stressed compared to the last few days .

but still going continue to mug hard .

so home sweet home ard 6 plus .

thanks for the great day guys ! (:

grats to sonia for coming in the 5th place .

and adam cheer up yeah ! (:

and hweetenggg take good care of ur leg ! :DD

gone crazy ..

2009-05-28T20:27:00.004+08:00

im so not feeling well , yes .
i woke up with an immense pain behind my head and i can feel some prickling pain on my left ear .
it seriously sucks . i wonder what happen to me ;O
nvm , today MT intensive was ok lo .
thn today assembly was awesome , except for the part where mr chan was talking with us .-.-
haha !
and tmr thereee's road run , i so fucking dnt feel like going .
bullshit ,waste of time only lo .
-.-
nvm , today came back home aft sch and started doing chinese till 8pm .
i think , i'm really going crazy already .
1st of june is approaching , in 4 days time .
somehow i hope i could faster sit for the paper so that i no need to worry so much , but on the otherhand , now i'm feeling so scared of the paper on monday .
my inner thoughts are racing against me , telling me i wont do well .
and now im so confused , yes confused ):
big sigh .
i suddenly felt this way , this complicating feelings ..
what is happening to me ?
i so hope that my hardworks will pay off , definately .
and holidaes aint going to be holidaes for me ?
cos i gt 10 sets of chemistry homeworks , 1 set of POA paper 1 & 2 , 2 sets of physics worksheet , 15 sets of maths homeworks .
kill me will you ?
and im so happy that i passed my report writing !
i thought i wrote out of point , and flunked it .
nevertheless i gt 17/30
it just let me realised that at times , we should expect the unexpected things to happen .
haha .
but still , im looking forward to holidaes .
lots of events going to happen .
im going shopping , japan bbq gathering on the 16 of june and etc !
AHAHAH !
-
those times ..
i still rmb ..how abt you ?..

sometimes i wonder ..

2009-05-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

well , im so not going to reupdate everything again.
this stupid blogger -.-
well , i only can say MT intensive was useless .
we only spent our time crapping and talking .
when i was on my way to toilet , walked past sec 4 express classes .
everyone was so dilligently studying for chinese .
and us leiis ?
well ,i gt nth to say .
blame tt stupid sch anyway .
only got to study on our own .
talked abt alot of random stuffs with the same old people .
andy can entertain me lei ! ahaha !
tmr last 3 hours of MT intensive already , needless to say .
it will be the same thing .
-
guess ppl are really self-centred nowadays .
they only think abt themselves .
and i realised , i dnt really understand you , though we seems to be close ?

2009-05-26T20:36:00.002+08:00

chinese MT intensive was pretty alright today .
cos while doing chinese halfway , andy came and sat next to me and entertain me .
rofls .
ltr on raymond and grace came too .
talk and talk .
stupid them ok .
esp andy and raymond -.-
so gt back all of my papers already .
maths paper 1 was pretty alright , gt an A2 but paper 2 was hell .
but still im quite happy that i pass .
i pass chem too !
so happpy ^^
LOL
so currently i failed poa , CH and i think english(?)
so congrats to those who had done well .
and for those who didnt do well , ur tried ur best alr !
so try harder next time ! (:
ard 430 meet ht and home sweet home at 715 .
6moredays , counting on .omgness .

today is a suay;bad day !

2009-05-25T20:25:00.004+08:00

i'm so tired today .
yes , i am extremely tired .
today chinese intensive IS BORING !
I WONDER ARE WE EVEN HAVING MT INTENSIVE , FOR GOD SAKE !
YES , I AM NO KIDDING .
i dislike the teacher , yes i do !
today he humiliated me infront of the whole class you know ?!?!
wtf la .
cos he was going through bao zhang bao dao with us .
and it's extremely boring and what he say aint RELEVANT at all .
what he say was totally completely different(to me la ) from what chen lao shi had teach us .
some of my friends are sleeping .
some of them are chit-chatting .
and i almost fell asleep during his lessons that i walked ard and i sat on the table .
yes , i sat on the table !
and he humiliated me .
he say he didnt see a girl sit on a table before !
im the first one , yes , bloody hell .
and i told him that sitting on the table is far more comfortable sitting on the chair lo and yes it really was .
i kept arguing with him and he say i look so unglam and whatever shits.
and you know what ?
he even suggested to write a bao zhang bao dao to discuss about me sitting on the table !
this is RIDICULOUS MAN !
WTF WTF WTF .
i so pissed off that i tolerated with it and went back to sit on the chair and staring into spaces .
i mean for the three hours shouldnt we be doing chinese .
but instead i think , i wasted my bloody 3 hours -.-
went for recess and up to the hall for a short briefing for friday road run and of cos , eng oral .
while waiting for my turn .
i sat on the chair , and i think i open my legs very big uh .
and mr viknesh was signalling me to close my legs .
i felt so paiiseh and malu can , somemore at tt time , melissa was the candidate -.-
oh my godddddd !!
so oral was pretty alright =D
and sat at the stage for abt 1 hour plus , till sch ends at 230 .
and gt back poa paper la.
i didnt hope i would pass and so i failed .
well , i disappoint mr melvin chua . ):
well , what's done cant be undone .
and i headed home and went out to eat lunch with family .
and my cousin , da zheng urine on me today ??!?
i was like..
godddd .
-.-
today aint my day at all .
headed home ard 5.
was doing chinese till i fell asleep and i forced myself to wake up at 6 plus.
and continue doing chinese .
now left bao zhang bao dao .
ltr going to do .
so yeah , jiayou ppl .
sigh , i think we will be like wasting another 9 hours again becos of the teacher -.-
and sore eyes is back again .
like chicken macnuggets la -.-
dunno wht happened to my eyes again ;O

2009-05-24T20:39:00.004+08:00

today a complicating day ..
ytd slept at 5 plus in the morning ..
cos i went to eat with bro ,cousins , mum and li juan at geylang .
haha =x
then today woke up 1 plus .
bathe eat and started doing gong han .
thn haven do bzbd yet .
lazy , no feeling perhaps ?
quite a great day with ht (:
p/s : i will have limits when I talk next time .><
p/p/s : stupid headache is killing meeeeee ! ):

I miss those times .

2009-05-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY , BROTHER ! ^^

was browsing through my photos , realised how much i had changed ;O

from the year i was in sec 3 till now .

great day;great memories with them .
sad to say , things aint the same anymore , isnt it ?

i kind of missed alot of things .

well , see the changes in my blog

HAHA .

i changed my blogskin , cos i gt sicked and tired of it :x

anyway , i'm quite crazy over the boys over flowers!

omgness .

shuqing and grace more crazy than me :x

-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER !

p/s : Ben&Jerry strawberry cheesecake is super duper ultra uber NICE ! OMGZXZX

2009-05-23T18:11:00.003+08:00

today was boring ;O
i woke up ard 1 plus in the noon :x
tired ,cant blame .
thn ard 2 plus to 3 went to vista with family to eat ..
thn i came home ard 5 .
doing chinese paper .
do till almost zzz -.-
thn now stuck at gong han la .
i'm almost falling asleep already *yawns ..
sian ah .
no feeling to do chinese , dunno why .
but i will force myself to study , no matter wht .
9MORE DAYS ONLY LEIIS ! OMG .
and i just ate ben & jerry ice-cream !
HAHAHA .
awesome la !
especially the strawberry cheesecake , SO HEAVENLY !
me and my bro was at there fighting over the ice-cream :x
then tonight gt so many shows to watch .
princess diaries 2 and boys over flowers.
omg la . tmr need to wake up early and continue study le la .

who am i to your ?

2009-05-22T16:05:00.002+08:00

i felt pretty happy and pissed off today .
happy was that i gt an A2 for my chinese prelim results,
and i passed my geo test 29/50 >< (i knw it isnt tt good either)
nvm , at least i passed .
so chinese results made me so shocked .
as i gt 10/20 for si han ~ yes , and lc i gt 10/20 too .
too unbelievable for me .
that i became very devasted and hopeless inside the AVA room .
then as paper 2 was given out , my heart throbbed even faster and faster .
and i couldnt imagine i gt 51/70 !
cos i thought that the paper was not easy to me , and i emo for quite some time .
><
so , my hardworks paid off and i shall continue mug and mug til 31 of MAY .
jiayou ppl .
-
pissed off by someone .
you pangseh me alot of times . i didnt say anything .
you sometimes show me attitude , i tolerate it .
you are good friend .
but now , you take me for what?
for granted is it ?
am i ur informant ?
am i responsible for telling you all these things ?
thn when i show attitude , you will like , o.o i show attitude , blah blah blah .
thn euu can show me attitude i cant show you attitude la ?
dnt get it seriously .
i had been hiding all my feelings deep inside because i dnt want and dnt wish anything to happen .
i dnt wish to arouse any tension , anymore .

i will learn to be more selfish.

2009-05-21T15:03:00.005+08:00

im so tired .
few weeks didnt had any PE already .
muscles started to ache when i woke up today due to the fact that i played badminton and volleyball ytd .
and
today woke up at 8 plus .
walked to 338 to find jian da and darryl .
quite cooling though .
and i realised i walked for just 12 mins ,from my house to 338 .
fast right?
HAHA .
ok ..
played till 11 plus..
took bus home .
ltr on going to watch night at the museum 2 .haha
i still rmb i watch night at the museum 1 during sec 2 with zj , grace and ty .
how time flies .
i remember tt day we met up and grace zj and i gave each other belated xmas present .
those times . . .
3 years ltr , things change .
cool , isnt it ?
things changes while times changes .
but nevertheless , some things cant be back as how it used to be ..
life is just so unfair , but afterall im still quite contented with my life now .
though some people or should i say friends , just come and go whenever they like .
not gonna let you hurt me .
i will let you knw the feeling of you treating me this way .
this time will come sooner or later .
just wait and see ..
-
night at the museum 2 with hweeteng ,adam and adam's sister .
not a very funny one .
it's far beyond our expectations i think . ?
but however , i still enjoyed la cos so long nvr watch movie with friends till so late le ;O
hahha .
so , there's sch tmr .
boring ..

2009-05-20T22:46:00.005+08:00

though today was a fun day ..
but Im ..
not in the mood to blog ..
have been staring infront of the laptop screen for hours ..
thinking ..
and i feel like saying this , and that is ,
you suck , that's it .
i dnt wish to say this , but you force me to say it .
-
o lvl mt in less than 2 weeks . .

2009-05-19T20:13:00.002+08:00

finally mid year is over !
FINALLY! HAHA
but o lvl mt is coming soon , in less than 2 weeks time.
tmr and thursday no sch , so decided to have a break and start studying for mt on friday onwards .
was late for today and didnt go and report to the prefects .
LOL
who cares , since they didnt see us anyway ?!
HAHA
physics paper , i hope i will pass :x
so after paper , went to find ht & co at canteen .
slacked awhile and headed to cosway for mac .
thn afterwhich hang ard at cosway ..
thn ard 2 plus near 3 .
ht , adam , sonia and i decided to watch movie .
and went to watch angels and demons .
nice movie , i can say =D
haha .
moive ended ard at 5 plus and home sweet home .
finally i get to play basketball again after so longggg .
need to get up at 8 tmr for basketball , so early la ! LOL
zzz

it started to become strange .

2009-05-18T17:27:00.007+08:00

today was suchh a cold dayyyy .
woke up at ard 845 to study abit for poa since last night i didnt study at all .
and i realised i didnt had a good slp too , i went to bed at 10+ , tossing and turning ard here and there , til abt 12 thn i finally manage to zzz .
thn met up with ch at bus stop and go sch tgt .
and stupid sch , postpone our paper de time ><
aft paper went to 883 to find ht & co .
afterwhich headed to cosway for mac and home sweet home ltr on .
-
this feeling is becoming more and more strange as days pass by . .
never did i realise , things could just change , as fast as i couldnt imagine it.
i dnt pin much hopes on somethings already , because i knew , good things will eventually end one day .
it will become haywire one day , depending on how bad it turns to ..

It never seems to end . .

2009-05-17T12:27:00.005+08:00

never ending .
i dnt wish to hear anything abt those things , but i gt no choice .
everytime i hear every single thing abt it , my heart will go " sigh " . .
and it makes me feel more , worst .
why must i be facing this kind of things .
i had enough alr ..
-
some things are changing . regardless it's good or bad , but most of them are bad ,
but im glad to have those peoples ard me , im sure you guys knw who your .
thanks to christianna & the cliques of girls , for always being there for me supporting me .
life has been great with you guys ard and yes , you guys really let me know what's the meaning of true friendship , love you guys !
thanks to hweeteng and adam , though i known you guys for not long , both of you had indeed brighten up my days alot , alot .
though , my friendship wtith both of you might drift aft the june holidays , but i hope both of you wouldnt forget about me , and do still keep in contact with me okay ! we shall take this time to know whether our friendship are strong not , but i hope it does .
i will miss all those craziness times spent with you guys , that goes without saying .
thanks farhan , jian da , yan ling , shu qing , chen hong , shieh tein , ghasis and li ping for being a good friend too .
All of you had made a great impact in my life , and im sure this impact ain come by easily .
it needs time and through times after times , our bonds got even more closer ..
and rmb i will still be here for you guys , as always .
that's what friends are suppose to do (:
-
back to a positive note , im meeting christ & co during the evening for a dinner !
like finallllllyyy !!
HAHAHAHAHAHA
christianna looks so cool uh .
and rosanne bag is so nice loooo
had dinner at pasta .
some chit chattings and laughters here and there .
and i realised mao is quite low today ?
dunno what happen to her ?
O.o
so stranger lo , she very quiet =/
hope to see them again during june ! ((:
Poa paper starts at 11 and ends at 12 tmr .
so tonight i can zzz late and wake up ltr !
bahahaha .
jiayou ppl ! ((:

i simply dnt understand why .

2009-05-15T23:24:00.004+08:00

i simply dnt understand why
i simply dnt understand why must i tolerate with ppl attitude ,, but yet , at times they cant tolerate the attitude that I had given them .
why .
why must i tolerate it .
why cant i just vent it all out , just like how you people give me tt stupid fucking attitude .
i dnt get it , seriously .
-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAMING ! (:
and thanks to ht &co for waiting for me today aft ur paper ..

i had nvr laugh so hard for a long time alr ..

2009-05-14T20:57:00.002+08:00

today geo paper was ..
i hope i can pass ?
nevertheless , i told myself i had tried my best .
so i wont be disappointed with my results when i gt back
at most go back sch for remedials during june holidays(:
today was in a pretty low mood at first .
mood-swing again -.- , which i detest it .
aft a period of time , mood went high again..
and i really had great laugh today .
laugh untill i cried . ><
LOL
ok , tmr night is going to be fine .
since im going over to grandma hse to celebrate DAMING's 1st year old birthday celebration !
AH HAHA
and i heard from my mum that his birthday cake is barney ?!
dunno in pri 3 or pri 4 was my last year , that family celebrate my birthday for me .
and i still rmb vividly that the cake was barbie doll cake ?!
HAHA and i still rmb i was sicked on my birthday .
sad uh ? =/
well , it's nice to reminisce back to the past at times though .
ok, enough craps .
tmr having maths paper 2 and CS MCQS paper .
so just endure .
next wed and thursday no sch for me !
HAHA
shall end here , goodbyeeeee (:

life hasnt been great afterall .

2009-05-12T16:34:00.004+08:00

maths and poa paper was totally disastrous .

poa was more worst .

i screwed up .

halfway through the poa paper , i was having a terrible headache .

my head spins round and round .

so i decided to anyhow do finish and went to zzz.

no idea why , i felt so stressed .

really very stressed this few weeks or days .

lots of things troubling me .

it seems as though i couldnt find any fresh air to breathe in deeply .

wanted to share with few of my best friends about my problems .

but i realised i cant say any of my problems out , my tongue went tied

i was thinking , maybe i'm used to bottle up my problems.

i need to stand up again and be strong .

yes , i will be .

i shall learn to treat you the way just like how you treat me .

2009-05-11T14:10:00.004+08:00

you're just so , fake .
nevertheless i have feelings , so do you .
so please stop that .
stop treating me or the others this way .
this feeling simply sucks .
or perhaps you didnt realise you treat me or us this way too ?
do you need a mirror to reflect on urself ,
on wht you had done to us ?
perhaps , you really need one .
dnt take us for granted .
goodbye , i will be back when im feeling emo again .

2009-05-10T12:47:00.001+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !
i LOVE my mama (:
-
p/s : thanks my dearest friends ! (:
im glad to have you guys beside me .
and i knw that you guys will always behind me , appreciated it alot !

tired

2009-05-09T14:26:00.006+08:00

I AM VERY TIRED OF ALL THIS .
JUST STOP THIS FOR ONCE .
LET ME STUDY IN PEACE CAN NOT ?
IM SO TIRED OF IT .
SO TIRED OF IT .
SERIOUSLY .
I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE .
tell me why .
tell me when euu going to stop all this stupid, silly and childish quarrels .
do you knw how terrible i felt deep inside .
do you knw how scared i am feeling deep inside .
terrified of all this things .
for how long have i been enduring this .
for how long i had stop crying over this matter till today i couldnt take it anymore .
i told myself to be strong , to be strong .
and it works , for only a short period of time .
i knw i shouldnt shouted at you just nw , but i couldnt take it anymore .
dnt you think that you are too suspicion over some particular matters .?
i dunno how younger bro feels , but i knw that he couldnt take it at times too.
we had been suppressing and hiding our emotions over this matter deep inside .
all this while i duno am i leading a happy or sad life.
happy becos i gt great friends ard me .
sad life , partly becos of this and some stupid ppls .
who knws how am i feeling exactly ?
who cares , maybe some , those usual ones .
im trying to live my life to the fullest .
somehow , i felt loveless at times too .
everyone is wearing a mask now , even me .
why do i lead such a pathetic life ?
how would you feel when friends backstab you ?
how would you feel when friends doesnt treat you as what friends are suppose to be ?
how would you feel when friends insult your intelligence ?
how would you feel when friends doesnt treat you with honesty and sincerity ?
how would you feel when you doesnt have a harmonious family ?
how would you feel when your hse was full of quarrels everyday ?
how would you feel ??
i am no longer strong , no longer .
i tried to hide my emoness for once , but not now , anymore .

1 more mth to go ?!?!?!

2009-05-01T20:22:00.002+08:00

((:

oh god , left one more mth to O lvl chinese .

im so not well prepared for it yet ??!!

ok , i want to watch x-men movie !

=x .

im so random .( yes im always random :o)

back to the point , today i had been so tired .

no idea why .

i woke up at abt 2 ?

after eating lunch , i continued to zzz till abt 5 plus .

am i powerful ?!

HAHHA

was supposed to study de la , but no idea why i so tired .

O.o

thn ard 6 started reading some english notes.

since monday is the start of exams !

time flies , it's the 1st of MAY already .

so yeah , after midyear NO slacking for me , NO MORE of using this lappy .

i shall study even more for my chinese !

so this blog shall be dead for 1 mth .

i will be back on the 1st of JUNE .

people , work hard and jiayou .

be the next black horse ! =D

GAMBATEH PEOPLES !!

2009-04-28T20:29:00.003+08:00

today was a fun day !
haha .
woke up at 8 today .
im reluctant to go school , since im so tired .
but in the end i still dragged myself up from the bed .
chem and physics test was disastrous ok-.-
since it's over , i also cant do anything alr .
thn today i was doing some stupid actions that makes grace laugh out loud ! =x
hehe !
nvm, i entertain ppl (:
ok , aft sch stay back for chinese oral .
it was okok ba ?
lz read two words wrongly and which makes me go laughing non-stop too ! =x
after oral , went to meet ht at the triple 8 bus stop .
thn headed to her hse first .
after abt 10 mins went to vista ,since she had her dental appointment .
putting braces so ma fan one , still need to be troubled over which colour do get for ur braces =x
after which went to have prata !!
hehe , since she was craving for prata so much since ytd night =D
thn afterwhich slacked ard till 6 plus then home sweet home .
i love ht ! HAHA =D
p/s : guess i need to start study for midyear alr , since i dnt wish to go back to sch for remedials during june holiday .
p/p/s : adam , cheer up okay ?

forgiveness is not a gift for the person who has hurt you , it's a gift for urself .

2009-04-27T20:04:00.006+08:00

im feeling melancholy today .
gt emo over things that happened last year .
you guys leave me in a lurch , thinking that everything is my fault,
making me friendless , loneliness .
did you guys ever know how i feel ?
when i so hoped that my clique of people will be there for me , but NONE of you were there for me .
infact , it was yan ling and jian da being there for me .
i been through those hurts , sorrows and pains that you guys gave me .
and from tt very day onwards , i knew i could no longer trust you guys just like how i did in the past .
i realise that trusting myself is the most important thing .
and i knew that having a best friend at that moment = not having a best friend at all .
so i learnt from my lesson that it's best to be friends with everyone and not having a best friend .
when best friend aint there for you when you needed them , then what for it's still called best friend ?
nevertheless , i faced those pains , hurts alone .
but you ?
having so many peoples around you and makes almost everyone think that im the one at fault .
did i mention anything ?
i just gulp down all those pains and sorrows that i had went through . .
and somehow some people doesnt even deserve me to be good and kind towards too , but yet i still treat that person good .
tell me , after all those things that i had went through , and what i gotten in the end was all this .
does it worth it ?
anyway ,thank you for hurting me so that i could grow up , control and tolerate with my anger , and most importantly , you guys let me know exactly what kind of person you are .
people do change .
it's just a matter whether we change for the better or change for the worst .
anyway , sry and thank you to ht and adam .

2009-04-26T20:29:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wonder do i really exist to some of the people out there .
i feel like changing my poa seat , maybe tmr i shall sit in a single file .
it's the same thing again and again .
history repeated again .
guys are indeed more important than us , to you .
maybe i had made the right choice , to start letting it drift .
5 years of friendship , not even a single bit of change in ur this fucking character.
well ,cant blame uh .
when you say friends are more important to you than bf , it's just all bullshit-sssssssss
i dnt fucking care whether you read my blog or anyone tell you i wrote this .
i must NOT BE SOFT-HEARTENED .
people , im alright ok .
dnt come asking me whether im fine not .
-
my life gonna be more busy than now .
mum's going to start working soon , within one mth time .

2009-04-24T22:28:00.003+08:00

guess who is this ? hahah ! she is my dearest sgn =D

alright , see this photo , and better cheer up okay !

dnt sad sad or low low alr !

see just now how happy you are at the mos with us ,esp me .LOL :x

ok..

this few days life had been ...dunno how to describe it .

dnt bother to think abt it .

well, childish the only word to say .

trust me or dnt trust me , up to you to decide .

not tt im being sensitive , just tt from today , i could see that you dnt trust me anymore compared to them .

well , i cant do anything to it .

and to continue moving on with my life ..

to me , even today is a worst day , but there are still other things that happened that makes me happy .

seriously , thanks to all the people for being there for me recently .

i treasured you guys alot alot alot .

tmr i'm going lib with christ , mao and rosanne !

get to see them tmr , happy !=D

and to those who are feeling moody , sad , dejected ..

cheer upp okayyyyy !

p/s : ht you better cheer up ok ,cos i will be here for you no matter wht ! (:

2009-04-22T19:26:00.002+08:00

aft so many years of friendship , i realised i dnt understand you at all .
i think you have split personalities ?
well , if you didnt do something wrong abt it ,what for being fear abt ?
and now im saying that im not siding with anyone .
yes im not siding anyone .
i dnt trust people that much , except a few ..
it's too hard for me to trust somone right now , you will nvr know who will betray you next .
i trust myself the most , that's wht i can say .
and i can see that you doesnt trust me and right now i also need to tell you that i dnt trust you really too
think im a faker?
HAHA
i dnt mind .
it's my life , my blog .
i say or rather blog whatever things that i like ..
and if you're trying to act pity and innocent infront of me , let me tell you straight .
no way you can make me fall into the trap .
i had seen it clearly , who you are .
you say i dnt bother abt you when you say ur problems , but let me ask you first .
do you even bother abt my problems when i tell you ?
NO , you didnt .
and those words that you had say makes me think that you think that i will betray you .
so fucked up over this .
perhaps in ur eyes im this kind of person uh .
well , i shall not be bother abt it .
but I just feel a sense of consternation .
i dnt bear grudges , and regardless of what bad things your had say abt me , i dnt mind .
i shall let it be .
let bygones be bygones.
but one thing for sure is , those things that your had done behind my back , had already let me know that your this kind of person .
and the fact that i think that your this kind of person will not change .
how i think of your , it's NVR gonna be change , unless some miracles do happen .

2009-04-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

firstly ,
thanks to farhan and jd for making me laugh .
they are really trying their best to cheer me up .
so i appreciated it , THANKS !
im sry that im not in my crazy mood today .
seriously thanks , both of you are my friends that i treasured alot alot ! =D
ok , aft remedial .
went to hall to find ht and co .
so yeah , ard 4 went to cosway with them tgt with jaron .
and hang ard at kopi-alley ?
lots of funny things happened too .
dunno why when i hang out with them , i will miss those times when i was during sec 2 =x
but they really make my day too , thanks (:
so i hope tmr i wont be moody again .
-
p/s : im quite disappointed with my chinese test .
i gt 33/50 only ..
but nvm , i shall work even harder !

fine ?

2009-04-19T18:44:00.009+08:00

well .
am i escaping from the reality ?
or like wht darryl had say abt me ,
i acted to be happy in class nowadays .
even not funny things i will still laugh .
im trying my very best to be happy now ..
but when i tried to be happy ,
people like darryl say i acted untill so fake .
LOL .
but i dnt care alr uh .
i love my life now .
but at least i know that even if im acting , i'm leading a happy life now (?)
i seriously have no idea wht is happening to me ,
and i dnt want and dnt bother to think about it .
it's waste of my time to think about it .
think that i'm wearing a mask , think that im a faker , think that im not one to be dependable on ,think that im not trustable , think that im not a great friend , i bloody hell dnt care abt it .
perhaps , im just really trying to be happy on the surface ...?
for now the only thing that i hope for , is to not being hurt over and over again .
-
Lost sight
Couldn't seeWhen it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
-
oh ya , good luck to my dearest friends uh ! first day in poly!
jiayou, jiayou !
dnt forget me uh !
hehehe =DD
hope we will still hang out to have lots of fun and laughters together !
love you guys ! (:

happy yet tired .

2009-04-17T20:06:00.010+08:00

today went for dragon-boat competition !
gt in first for our plate competition .
and all of us were so happy , HAPPY !
YES , WE SCREAMED TILL LIKE SIAO .
becos for the cup competition we gt in last?
thn since we managed to get into plate , we decided to at least won sth back to sch !
and we really worked tgt as a team and gt in FIRST !
we were so excited that becos most of us are going up to the podium to receive our medals on monday !
OMGOMG .LOL
woohooo !!
=DDD
reached back sch ard 1 plus..
ate and went for vball .
i was slacking at there .
trying to open my eyes .
since i was tired plus boring ..
sgn, you better be touched !
becos im so tired yet i went to see ur training ! :p
ard 5 plus gastric started acting up .
and i dunno why , i decided to went down to canteen to buy a hl milk to at least ease my gastric .
but it doesnt work . ?
so slacked in the canteen till 7 ?
homed tgt with ht ..
then i reach homed and realised my mum didnt cook -.-
so i went to vista to buy food back to eat , if not i think my gastric will become more worst ..
thn i quickly buy and went back home to eat.
now i felt so much better alr ..
im so tired now ..
my eyes might closed at any time
:x
p/s : GREAT JOB GUYS ! DEEP OUR PADDLES DEEP INTO THE WATER ,KICK AND STRETCH FORWARD AND BACKWARD ! !!
=DDD

2009-04-15T21:07:00.002+08:00

i dnt understand why i feel this way . .
it's consternation i should say ..
what am i doing ?
how______ .. ;
but still i dnt mind ..
those w______ s;
it's just a way of you to e_____ d it isnt it ?
i dunno why i cant i_____d and treat you just like how you used to do tt to me .
big sigh .
fear; y____rjust too s______y
-
ur no need to guess or figure out wht im trying to say ..
becos your wont be able to know wht im trying to say .
(:

faker ?

2009-04-14T19:07:00.004+08:00

I LOVE TUESDAY-SSSSSSSS BUT DEFINATELY NOT TODAY !
firstly , as usual .
i took bus to sch .
and i was standing at the alighting point .
thn suddenly an old lady asked me to help her tap her ezlink card .
thn me being kind & helpful( =x ) , turned ard to face her to get the ezlink card .
and when i turned , i pulled untill my back de nerves .
and i was like fined . enduring the pain and pretended nth happen .
then after much rubbing on it , not so pain already .
tmr there's still dragon boat training for me , god bless me alright !!
and thn practically everyday it was fulls of laughters to me .
unless im emo or my ppl ard are low .
but it rarely happened .
so yeah , as usual .
laughters killed it all .
i enjoyed sitting with my partner farhan and the friends ard me like jian da , mei ying and syerry .
becos we could laugh like mad together over some things
i just love sitting with them ! ((:
they really makes me LAUGH OUT LOUD !
HAHAH !
thn aft sch went cosway with sq , my and ty .
as i wanted to buy shoe bag and sandals de.
thn while i was trying on the sandals in sportlinks ,
i wore it and wanted to take out , and i pulled till my leg de nerves -.-
and i twist my leg and lucky , it's fine after that ..
cosway sold those fake branded sandals so exp .
so i decided not to buy ..
ard 4 plus went back home ..
thn reached home went to vista bought the sandals at $12.90 lo
i saw rosanne in the bus on my way back home ! HAHHA
-
i see things that i dnt want to see ;
i hear things that i dnt want to hear ;
i still cant believe or rather should i say i am not accepting the fact that you're this kind of person ;
i cant trust my eyes on seeing wht you are today ;
seriously . . .
-
whether it matters or doesnt matters ;
it isnt important anymore ;

p/s : i dnt intend to study tmr poa test leiis , cos i totally dnt understand and i hate that topic -.-

知人知面不知心 ..

2009-04-11T23:22:00.005+08:00

mao asked me to blog so i shall blog uh =x
ok..today quite a funny day .
i met up with wendy at 1245.
but she is late again .
forever one uh .LOL
nvm . thn i pei ee hoon go change her wallet first..
afterwhich ee hoon went lib first while wendy and me went to eat ..
aft tt shopped for lz present .
like shopped for so long.
finally buy sth .
ok ..
aft tt slacked at mac .
was happily chatting .
and she is forever shooting me and me always shooting her !
HAHAH
ard 3 plus christ and her mum came and find us .
and i must say christ mum is damn hilarious la !
haha
ard 4 plus headed to library to find mao and eh .
thn wendy left first .
aft which we headed to mac , went to had my dinner at there .
thn chit chatted alot .
talked abt alot of stuffs ..
thn ard 5 plus went to popular to shop ard.
thn ard 6 me and eh went home first .
yes , there will be a wild wild wet outing!
haha !!
i realised i cant live without this whole bunch of friends (:
-
oh ya ..i want to mention sth .
few days back , i think thursday..
when i was inside the lift , going up to the cinema .
i met this inconsiderate lady (perhaps she aint fits to be a lady ?)
i was standing next to the lift buttons while she stands next to me .
thn i think she was in a rush .
and she practically pressed the close button when almost every lvl the door open .
like wtf , im pissed off becos there's still spaces and it can fit in ard 5-6 ppl sia!
thn she closed the door .
i was like wondering , you are in mid 20s ?
yet you dunno wht's being polite and considerate?
no wonder you are a bimbo , a fat ass !
like wtff seriously .
wht happen to this society ?
people who does not even have basic manners .
-.-
damn pissed !

2009-04-10T19:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY EE HOON ! ^^
ok , ytd i went to watch the shinjuku incident with bro and cousin .
nice show !
haah !
i would recommend ppl to watch it ! (:
thn reach home ard 2 .
and off i slept till today morning 11 .
thn i lala here and there .
thn i thought that i was suppose to meet rosanne they all at 230
so i slowly took my time ..
thn at 2 , rosanne called me asked me wheere am i ?
thn i say at home lo .
she say meeting time was 2 pm .
lucky i alr prepared hao alr , so can went out straight away .
so reached , brought the wallet ..
thn ee hoon came .
so me , rosanne , sr , mao , christ and mag went off to yoshi .
thn christ and rosanne went to buy cake and sr lied to ee hoon saying tt christ was having a diarrhoea -.-
LOL
ok , thn i think eh was quite surprised by the cake ba ?
hoho
aft yoshi .
walked ard ..
decided to catch a movie de .
but when we go up , see the queue like so long , thn forget abt it alr .
so headed to arcade !
halfway through mag went home first.
then we at the arcade ,
played till like siao !
hah !
aft tt ard 5 plus went to mac and slack ard .
and started playing some games .
gt one game i was so stupid , dumb , retarded la!
haiiyo -.-
i gt no rthymn and fingers like retard ><
thn 6 plus home sweet home !
i guess today it's a fun day ba !
i laugh till like siao can =x
hope you like the celebration though , eehoon (:
matilda , cheer up hor ! everyone needs a friend . im sure you will find a close friend soon !
stupid sgn(ht) ,going shanghai on 31may when i going to take my o lvl chinese paper on 1st of june ! =x
ltr going to my uncle hse to have dinner ..
mahjong soon !
yeah !! =DD

2009-04-09T21:12:00.003+08:00

today had 2.4km run .
timing was quited okay la ,im satisfied with it though ..
=x
but when i reached class , head started feeling heavy .
same goes to jd .
both of us was giddy daoo~~
thn when mrs eng arrange us in a group , then she suddenly say "lihua ok , means ok with the arrangement( i think ? )
thn i gong-gong , say ok ..
and i guess i going to grow fat , becos i just ran 2.4km this morning and just nw i consumed so much food again .
recess i ate ok nvm .
at ard 3 i stayed back with st and eat noodles .
ard 4 went back home.
bathe and rushed to meet ty as we are going to chong pang tgt with chen hong .
thn reach there .
ard 5 plus i ate again -.-
see , that's the reason why i say im going to grow fat !
thn shopped ard till 7 headed home .
thn i chased aft the bus since i dnt want to wait for the next bus .
and ty and ch saw me chasing aft the bus .
and ty started smsing me and told me she saw me chasing the bus , and laugh at me !
stupid ah lou !! :p
ok , reach cosway .
went to buy tickets since bro say wanna watch jackie chan movie .
thn i was like okay lo .
watching 1155 de .
thn i so tired , ltr still need to watch movie -.-
sians ah !
ok , only one day holidaey and we gt so much homeworks to do
zzz
stupid sch -.-
p/s : im so looking forward to dragon-boatin on next fri but i guess it's going to be postpone since we only going to have our training next week -.-

trying to tolerate ..

2009-04-07T20:21:00.006+08:00

today was quite an entertaining day .
chem lesson was hilarious la , esp when mrs eng show us the video on wondergirls .
almost all the guys gt high and mrs eng started to follow the dance movements of the wondergirls and started dancing .
i think quite alot of ppl laugh when mrs eng was doing those movements .
hahas =x
no remedial today , so went home quite early and had a nap for abt 2 hours.
now im so full of energy .
and i done with studying for my geo test tmr !
and ltr need to cntinue with my chinese revision
-
you knw all along im tolerating ur suckish attitude towards me .
just like today .
i seriously cant take it anymore .
when you are in a bad mood , you vent it out on me .
or when i didnt did anything wrong , you suddenly scold me .
what do you take me for , seriously ?
when you kaobei me , i kaobei you back , and you continued to kaobei me back again and again .
showing me those astrocious attitude .

i am almost on the verge of shouting back to you and telling you not to give me this attitude , do you know?
i can tolerate , but there is always a limit to it .
when i show you attitude you cant tolerate it , and now you showing me attitude , you wanted me to tolerate .
come on , what is this ?
sigh ..
-
那年单纯的我们去了那里 ?

nvr to be fool again .

2009-04-05T18:45:00.006+08:00

信任已不在了 ;
也没有什么好说的.
i believe in what i had see and not what i had heard .

2009-04-03T21:29:00.001+08:00

im sort of feeling moody now ?
i have no idea why do i feel this way too ..
i gt so much things to say , but i guess this isnt a right place for me to say it all out .
-
seriously , i wonder when will it last?

2009-04-02T20:11:00.002+08:00

today pe was hell okay !
it's simply , H E L L .!!
went for dragonboat selection ytd and back started to ache -.-
thn today pe physical somemore .
i wonder how am i going to survive through tmr pe -.-
can only suay that pe falls on the thursday and friday -.-
continuous ?!
ZZZ
fine , and i think tonight im going to burn midnight oil again .
i haven study my ss essay test yet .
like shit la ..
><
whole body ache like wht , esp back ! ):

2009-03-31T23:02:00.002+08:00

i shall not care abt it since now im enjoying my life .
this are just minor things.
tmr i will be a happy me again !
i will go around doing stupid things , making crazy actions to entertain people and so to myself .
weets
and lihua , work hard okay !
you can do it man !
must have the motivation and determination !
yeah 2 more mths to o lvl chinese .
when the results of o lvl chinese is out , i will put on a smile with it ~!
yeah , chen lao shi say its not too late to pia if you wanna get A , so yeah .
jiayou , jiayou , jiayou !
i will use this weekends to do finish my chinese cloze passage book , im still halfway to go !
YEAH ,
加油加油 , 我行的 !
只要我付出汗血 , 我就会得到我所渴望的成绩 !
现在只好把那些烦恼抛到九霄云外去 !!!!!!!!
((:

2009-03-31T19:45:00.005+08:00

i cant believe that you actually think that im this kind of person .
what do you mean by that ?
are you trying to say that im not a great listener or are you trying to tell lies ?
let's not talk about saying lies .
you say that im reluctant or rather not happy to listen to your troubles and so that's the reason you didnt tell me about ur problems ..
come on , but the truth was that you did tell me ur problems and at times i comforted you or giving you advises ?But yet you told someone else that you didnt tell me becos it's like wht i had mention above .
what is this ?
what are you trying to prove or say ?
then have you ever asked yourself did you treat people or me the same way .
yes ,it's me !
when i told you my problems , what were you doing at there ?
you didnt even bother to , doing ur own things, smsing ur beloved bf .
hack care about it , but i didnt utter a word .
and now behind my back you say those things to another person .
what i can say was , people treats you back just like how you treat them .
but i guess i was just TOO NICE , far too nice to treat you so nice when you say this kind of thing about me .
thn next time you dnt tell me about ur problems la .
what's the use ?
we are friends , but it hurts to find out that this was what you had actually say abt me .
seriously , dnt make me turn back into the old me whom used to throw tantrums and a hot-tempered girl .
dnt force me ,seriously .
in ur world , there's only bf .
bf here and there .
then what's the use of us being ur friends ,like honestly ?!
-
im back on study track but yeah house is soo noisy again .,
i guess i need to visit library at night again .

2009-03-29T18:32:00.004+08:00

i feel like killing myself .
i simply have no idea why i'm not in the mood to do homeworks at all ..
wtf is happening to me ?
it seems like my head is being occupied by something .
but i cant seems to figure out what is that stupid irritating particular thing -.-
oh fuck , fuck , fuck !
i hope i can concentrate and focus more seriously .
my results already sucks like HELL alr !
it's HELL ! SEE IT !
somemore april is approaching soon , which means 2 more months to o lvl chinese !
i hope shu rou is here to scold me and ask me to word hard .
because she will keep on nagging me and pushes me to study !
what a BIG sigh !

-
maybe i was wrong for trying to pick up a fight .
i know that Ive gt issues too .
But you are pretty messed up too .

2009-03-28T19:56:00.003+08:00

I was intending to stop blogging until my chinese o lvl is over ..
but yeah , ytd was a pretty fun cum laughters day to me , and my mood was superb .
so i decided to blog abt ytd =D
so yeah , ytd .sch was okay .
i slept during physics lesson , damn tired ><
then pe was fun !
fun .
badminton ! =D
i keep saying to darryl that ..
walao euu guy , lose badminton to girl one ( which is me ! )
LOL =x
haha , i think that my badminton skills are pretty good because during the years of my pri 5 and pri 6 life , i went down to the badminton court near my hse with my neighbours to play badmintons .
but yeah , my relationship with the neighbours are pretty bad now due to something that had happened =.=
ok , back to point ..
had recess, thn went to eat , change clothes ..
went back class .
then sinced there were still time , slacked in class .
thn i had this funny and sad conversation with andy ..
i was listening to music with the speakers on ..
thn andy came and disiao me , and he kept playing and pausing ..
thn i told him this ..
me : walao , dnt bully me leiis ..!
andy : he say i nvr bully you wht , i only paused and played the music wat .
me : thn i bwg..
thn he continued saying ..
andy : you where gt kena bullied by ppl de ..(at there smiling )
me : thn i say gt lo !
andy : where gt .. you tell me you in class gt kena bullied by ppl ma ? thn he say you this kind of person where will kena bully by ppl one ..
me : thn i in silence ..aft a few secs , i say gt lo ,.. you dnt knw one .thn i say if gt ppl bullied you , you will help me ma ?
andy : wont , not my business ( at there laughing ! )
me : walao ! i sad liao la .thought knew you for 5 years alr , somemore friends ..you like this treat me one !
andy : he at there laugh -.-

stupid andy ! =x
ok , nvm ..
aft sch headed to watch movies with sq .
watched confessions of a shopaholic "
quite nice though .
aft tt headed mall cop with sq and benjamin ..
not bad i can say .
aft tt KFC ..
and home ard 5 plus .
thn went home bathe came out again .
meeting with some of my girlfriends at 630 .
dinnered at mos was entertaining
gt one moment i find sth funny and i laughed , thn they say i siao -.-
ok ,nvm ..i think funny can alr .
afterwards alvina came .
and ard 9 they came my hse for mahjong ..
then left at 10 .
afterall , i had lots of laughters !
(:
p/s : im going running tmr ! =p
p/p/s : i dunno why i do not have the mood to do my homeworks , to start studying for o lvl chinese .
wht's happening to me ?! oh god , i need to wake up man !
i seems of lacking this determination and motivation >:(

2009-03-22T23:17:00.001+08:00

no sch for me tmr !
p/s : i haven done finish my homeworks yet ):

2009-03-22T17:08:00.005+08:00

sigh .
should i say im suay or wht ?
tmr sch starts and now i'm down with fever and flu .
it's been long since i sicked alr ?
can feel the aching ( suan tong) feeling behind my back too .
i had been using dunno how many packets of tissue papers alr .zzz
stupid alright .
boring sunday i should say :0
ok , shall end my post here .
(: :D =D :p :x =p :3

supposingly 3moredays should be a magnificent day , where both of us will go out and celebrate for this friendship .
but this year , things are different ..
everything has come to an end ..
moving on with my life , with those laughters;happiness;sorrows etched inside my heart.
even though i missed the timessss , but nth can do done to it already ..
i hoped that you are happy and enjoying ur life now (:

2009-03-21T21:47:00.006+08:00

wtf .
after so many days , it rained again -.-
alright , i still gt tonnes of homeworks left being undone .
sigh .
so many homeworks to do ..
want die liao la
zzz .
today didnt go for pri sch gatherin cos shi ping suddenly msg me say she wont be going becos of sth ?
so i didnt go also lo ):
and i realised , sinced the start of holidaes , every morning i will be waken up by people msg .
zzz .
every single day you knw ?
LOL
11 zai continue pia my homeworks ba .
(:
p/s : sometimes is not that we dont want to do this or that , it's just a matter of us , willing to do that .
we can do it , only with a heart of willingness ..

2009-03-21T02:17:00.007+08:00

movie with bro and cousins .
race to the witch mountain , damn nice !
just came back not long .and now the time is 2.18am =.=
so i posting for today , which is friday de post !
ok , so caught chunli ytd night too , nt really very nice though ..
but learnt sth from the movie and that is " sometimes we have to stand up when the ending isnt easy "
-
你以为我是哑吧吃黄连吗 ? 我二话不说 , 并代表我什么都不知道吗 ? .
那我现在只能告诉你 , 你错了 .
我不记仇 , 也选择不去恨一个人 . 因为我觉得我不应该浪费我的力气及时间 , 做这种事情 .
可这并不代表我很好欺负 .
do you think that you are the only one being hurt ?
come on , just grow up alright .
everyone is hurt , terribly hurt .
it just depends on how we want to recuperate this hurt and our mindset to look upon this hurt .
yes , in this situation now , infact everyone who had been terribly hurt , thinks that a crack vase will always be a crack vase .
but to me , it isnt .
because i know that through pain , we gain , and to let us understand our ownself better .
it's you whom ownself want to trap inside that weakling hole of urs , thinking that oh , im hurt , so hurt .
instead why not think of letting bygones be bygones and let those hurt that we had went through , heal by itself and start afresh ?
we cant do anything to mend those things that had happened in placed already .
so what for kept making yourself miserable and thinking what had happened , and always trapped inside that weakling hole ?
yes , i admit that i still think of those incidenets that had happened , but im so proud to say that i learnt to see things at a brighter side , i have grown up and see things at a more perspective view .
indeed , a light will reveal one true self .
and stop thinking that the world revolves around you .
It isnt , neither did it revolve around me .
there are some things that is inevitable .
we cant stop what it's coming , but to accept it .
because you are not the only one exist in this world .
people change to adapt to the surrounding , to the environment .
people aint perfect in this world but yeah ,
should i say im too selfless or im not so childish as you are , saying bad things behind one's people back , and infront of them , treat them so good.
come on , at least , im so proud that im not this kind of people .
those ugly words that you had say about people or rather infact me , only let me know what kind of person you are exactly .
you might not even know that you say this people are doing this kind of things , but yet you are also doing this kind of things unknowingly .
this is my blog , i have every rights to rant out what i want to write .
if you are not happy with it , come and find me (:

2009-03-19T20:17:00.005+08:00

I haven done finish my homeworks yet !
TT
i still left maths online homework(which is halfway done ) , 6comphre + 5 compo plannings , geo notes ( halfway only ) , ss notes and poa homeworks !
oh god ..
sch is going to start soon .
i rather have remedials than having so much homeworks !!!
stupid sch la ..
told us no remedials , want us to rest ..
but yet giving us so many homeworks , how to rest ?!
.____.
ok , just nw had dinner with ai ting ..
had pasta at lot 1 and did some catch up ..
((:
yeah , just a short one , ard 45 mins ? but i'm contented alr .
=D
ltr watching movie with bro and cousins..
watching "street fighter : the legend of chunli"
and bro asked me to watch 2 movies tmr .
say wht movie marathon -.-"
haha !
p/s : i guess sgn having lots of fun at genting now ba ? asked me to miss her , euu better miss me too ! :x LOL

beneath my laughters ..

2009-03-18T21:58:00.002+08:00

(see , wht yan ling did to my hair =.=)

(siao zharb0)

side view of sq ..

me , candid shot taken by them =.=

another one ! -.-"

candid shot of cai hong =x

candid shot of ghasis

candid shot of shuqing

shieh tein =x

(GUESS WHO IS THIS , I LMAOS SEEING THIS PHOTO ! =X)

HEHEHE

SHIEH TEIN AND ME (:

(ghasis like monster , attacking yl and shieh tein =x )

sry guys . im lazy to upload all the photos .

alright bowling with sq , yl , st , ghasis , lp and cai hong .

met up with them at 11 .

headed to eat then off to yishun safra .

lots of ppl though , then we booked first , then headed to arcade and play .

yupp .

played till 2 plus went to play bowling .

7ppl one lane .

so pathetic ..

haah , and our name were so funny lo !

my name was called " PAKISTANI" =.=

LMAOS right .

credit goes to ghasis ?

alright , i had lots of laughters with them .

so reach home ard 6 ?

well , i realised , even though i was having fun , laughing with them ..

but those sadness kept surrounding me ..

sigh .

i also hate myself from being this way .

and today i missed the checkup .

and my mum , aunt started to nag .

well , they really scared the freak out of me telling me this and that .

if zi gong is removed , no need give birth alr .

and i need to do this checkup .. -.-

becos my aunt went for operation was becos of this ..

dunno what zi gong alot of " liu" ?

if there's sth wrong , i might need go for operation .

sigh , im so scared now ..

i scared of all these stuffs sia )):

mum say she will die die bring me to this checkup ..