today is quite a fun day .
im lazy to elaborate much .
sorry ppl .
infact i just want to post abt sth else ..
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been thinking alot when i was on the train back home with mao , christ .
been thinking about the happenings that happened before and after .
sometimes i really hope that humans can live twice in this world .
I rmb one of the actress which passed away 2 years back .
and aft 2 years , life still revolves around and etc .
i wanted to know how will this world be when im gone .
you might be thinking that im talking crap here , but hey serious .
i really wonder .
Why must we come to this world when sooner or later ,each of us will be depart from this world .
And we will know nth about this world.
I dnt get it , seriously .
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Many things are happening , and the thing that is affecting me the most is my family problems .
Sometimes i feel like giving two tight slaps on my bro face , for the way he treated me .
Sometimes I feel like shouting at my dad , asking him to stop being this way .
Sometimes i feel like telling my mum not to be over sensitive and paranoid .
I'm really sicked and tired of it already .
I'm sicked and tired of the quarreling , noises in this family .
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And while chatting with christ and mao on the train ,
I just realised that I have many friends , but I dnt have much close friends .
come to think of it , somehow i feel so ..well i dunno what to say .
sometimes I'm really tired on putting a mask .
why cant i be the real me ?
and at times , i cant stand , but to feel being alone with some peoples .
this suckish feeling , who will understand ?
Im trying very hard to be selfish .
And im trying very hard to ignore those peoples who dnt fucking give a shit about me .
Im trying , Im trying alot of things .
I hope it will work out .
And I realised who are my real friends and who are my fake friends .
Some friends might be using me , so i shall not be a fool to let you do it .
Some friends show me attitude whenever they like it .
Some friends wanted me to tolerate their attitude when they cant even tolerate my attitude at times .
Some friends abandon me at a side .
Some friends treat me hot and cold .
so what is the ending ?
I dunno ...
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p/s : Im not going to install MSN , since my bro just reformat the com .
It doesnt make any difference to me since most of the times im appearing offline .
so you guys wont be able to see me on online for weeks or rather months.
Untill i really find the meaning of having MSN , i will download it .
but currently , no .