im feeling melancholy today .
gt emo over things that happened last year .
you guys leave me in a lurch , thinking that everything is my fault,
making me friendless , loneliness .
did you guys ever know how i feel ?
when i so hoped that my clique of people will be there for me , but NONE of you were there for me .
infact , it was yan ling and jian da being there for me .
i been through those hurts , sorrows and pains that you guys gave me .
and from tt very day onwards , i knew i could no longer trust you guys just like how i did in the past .
i realise that trusting myself is the most important thing .
and i knew that having a best friend at that moment = not having a best friend at all .
so i learnt from my lesson that it's best to be friends with everyone and not having a best friend .
when best friend aint there for you when you needed them , then what for it's still called best friend ?
nevertheless , i faced those pains , hurts alone .
but you ?
having so many peoples around you and makes almost everyone think that im the one at fault .
did i mention anything ?
i just gulp down all those pains and sorrows that i had went through . .
and somehow some people doesnt even deserve me to be good and kind towards too , but yet i still treat that person good .
tell me , after all those things that i had went through , and what i gotten in the end was all this .
does it worth it ?
anyway ,thank you for hurting me so that i could grow up , control and tolerate with my anger , and most importantly , you guys let me know exactly what kind of person you are .
people do change .
it's just a matter whether we change for the better or change for the worst .
anyway , sry and thank you to ht and adam .