I'm really tired of all these.

Monday, October 13, 2008 ,

11:35 PM

second post of th day ..
firstly , DEAREST SGN , I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU , NO MATTER WHT . YOU SHOULD KNW UH . CHEER UP !! (:
second ,it concerns my own personal things .
yupp . i dunno should i say i'm greedy or should i say i not ?
i'm seriously putting in alot of efforts in this friendship , but i wonder did you do th same ?
sigh .
i'm tired of it , but th moment i told myself that i wanna give up this friendship , few days later same situation came over and over again .
i still rmb wht you had told me .
no idea why i cant forget abt it whn you told me to forget abt it .
I had been reflecting all this while aft our friendship turned haywired .
i knw my temper really sucks , but i really did try to change for myself , at th same time for this friendship .
becos i dnt wanna lose such a good friend , you understand .sigh .
I really hope that you can see th efforts i had made for this friendship .
4 years of friendship . will it be wasted for all those thicks and thins we went through together .
I dun think it's worth it at all to let it go .
but there's a saying which say : what's urs will be urs .wht isnt urs , no matter how hard you tried to hold on , it will eventually go away one day "
does this applies to our friendship ? i dunno .
but i guess this isnt really th time to let god decide as this is our friendships , not god's friendships .
I'm just tired .
I really do care abt this friendship deep inside my heart , though i dunno can you feel it not .
there's alot of times i had been staring and thinking . just when exactly will we be much more closer to the situation now .
apparently , we do talked on the surface , but deep inside i'm sure you still got lots of hidden thinkings and thoughts which you had not express it out .
afterall , i still think that our friendship turned haywired you had a part in it .
becos aft 1 year of closed friendship , thn you told me abt my tempers and etc .
esp during the time when everything wasnt back on the track , do you think it works ?
sigh .
why am i still fretting abt this friendship ?
it had been fretting me for more than 3 more mths alr .
i bloody hell need a time-machine !

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